Hello everyone!
Today marks 31/12/10!!
Last day of 2010...
Nothing much...
But it was an awesome day today...
Rain rain..
But i saw the prettiest kite...
I saw the prettiest sun..
I saw the prettiest clouds..
I saw the prettiest sky...

Even though i actually dread to go there...
I've got the chance to get away from tat place.
But i decided to somehow face it...
I choose to trust...
I choose to believe..
But yet my heart is not feeling that good too...

There's just a wall in me...
Telling myself...
Something will happen..
Something might happen...
When i know that nothing is gonna happen..

How i wish i was the one who did so much small little things with you...
Wished many many things...
Wished tat i've got a chance to turn back..
Perhaps either i choose not to appear..
Or even appear in a much earlier time..

But den...
As we walk and sit down..
Talk and talk..
Suddenly i felt really safe...
I dunno why...
Your actions,your words...
Make me safe...
Perhaps that's wad love is all about...
But i wish...
Im the one and only one...
Give me a chance...
And enter into you...

Tats all
Byebye ppl
HAPPY NEW YEARRR 2011!

[[EILEEN]]

30th December 2010hello..
im back posting agn!
im back to share something agn :D
some told me this...
对不起,原谅我,谢谢你,我爱你:D简单的字体,背后却有很大的意义
sorry,forgive me, thank you & i love you.

seriously..this sentence came revolving around me since i came back from malaysia...
i agree with it too...
perhaps everyone think that this few words are very easy to be said at times..
but when you really need to say it..would you actually hold back for a while before saying it?
this few words might be really simple..
but yet..it has alot of meaning behind it..when you use your heart to say it out...
its totally different from saying it out without using your heart...
hahahahahaaaa!!

next next..
my awesome is finally back...
dunno if im going out tml..
i hope i would be??hahhaas...
don't feel like stayin at home at all...
but im not fully well yet la=X
tat's all
byebye

[[EILEEN]]

MY 552 POST!

hello people.
im like FINALLY BACK!
after soooo long!hahhaass
it was sooo fun over there okay!
and i made tons and tons of very nice friends...
of course...got together with my old old long time no see friend also!
rahhh...
seriously..everyone changed alot la :D
its a good thing :D
hahahas...
anyway...
here to share something with everyone..
its rather interesting :)
the definition of FEAR:

False
Emotion
Appearing
Real

hahahas...
believe it or not..
but its rather true too la :D
hahahass...
rahhh..
currently im sick...
after laughin at my sis and joey..
den now its my turn!
KARMA la!
hahahass!!
rahhh...
2 more days and my baby would be finally back!
wooohooo..
sooo happy..
den i can see him alr!
hehehzz...

err..
shall keep this short la..
cos i need plenty of rest..
so that i will get well asap!
hahahas!!
last but not least...
time for some learning...
i need to have a peaceful mind and heart...
no matter how much you dislike a person..
try to look at them as if they are your mirror...
reflect and learn...
change them rather then dislike them..
as only changin them will make a difference in life :D

tat's all for today!
byebye!
[[EILEEN]]

SAYONARAH!

HELLO!
my last night sleeping at home
and coming to post in my blog..
until 5 days later!
muahahahazz.
im going off to MALAYSIA tml alr!!

hahahas..
i totally enjoyed today la..
although im in a super pain state!
hahahs..dun ask me why!
lalalaaa...

alright before i go...

MERRY CHRISTMAS!
(in advance)

and for my dumb baby...
sayonarh sweetie..
off i go for 5 days..
and you for another 3 days..
hehehez..i know you will miss me!
muahahazz..cos i will miss you too! =X
tat's all..
take care okay..
remember to slp early..if you slp late remember to slp longer
so wont rudolph okay?although christmas is coming..
but i dun like rudolph!rahh
love you!!

[[EILEEN]]

Hello people!
Im back posting agn...
This shall be a short post la..

Today i had a lesson about GIVING..
although it was just like a 45mins lesson..
I learnt alot of from!hahhaas...
And of course...
The reflection of me myself in the mirror...
Im finding my "WAY" -> who are you...
Im findin who am i really?
Hahhas...
It a very interesting lesson i learn today...

Also...
There's no point grumbling about how bad a person is...
It just actually show how you are actually...
Why not change a point of view..
And learn from their mistakes..
And even try to change them?
Hahahas..i cant believe im saying this..
And yupp..
Im tryin to change..
To be a better person...

Last but not least...
I dunno who what when where why and how did my courage come back to me...
Im gonna work for my dreams..
And no longer hidin anymore..
Because...
LOVE is a magical word...
It makes fairytales alive~

Tats all for today..
Bye.people..
[[EILEEN]]

MY WEEKKKK~



hello everyone!
im back posting agn!
this week was filled with 一场欢喜一场空 things..
hahahas...
and den...
i realised tat actually there's no point having sooo many friends!
hahahaasss!!!
as out of sooo many, who will be the ones to be there for you when you really needed them?
hahahass..i really wonder..who will be there for me...

im trying to be really optimistic now...
tat day...i broke down and cried..
only 2 person know how i really felt at the moment in time...
i felt like as if i lost something really important to me...
but yet..i doubt the other party felt so too!
hahaha...
i've decided...im not going to do anything anymore..
since no one cares..why should i care so much??
i've tried..and gave up...

okay okay next next...
yesterday...we went PASIR RIS!
hahahas...epic things happen la..
met up with joshua(birthday boy) den head off to pasir ris mrt...
den met eugene (uncle), hock ann(uncle), reynold, daryl pang, chia min (twinnie) and eugene(the shy one)..
after they mumm mumm..
we set off to ntuc to buy some rubbish to eat =X
den as we were ready to set off..
but it was raining..
so we sat at the interchange there...
den talk talk talk and crap there...

den lastly...drizzling only..
so we decided to go there and find a shelter to picnic!
hahahaass!
so we walk walk walk..den anyhow sing sing sing..
crap crap crap..laugh laugh laugh!!
finally we found a shelter!hahahas!!

here's the epic part..
one we got into the shelter and settle down..
THE RAIN STOPPED!
hahahs..den chia min throw his jacket on the floor!
den he put back onto his head!(omg.this is soooo OMG!)
den den we started eating...
den played chapteh! HAHAHAAAS!
super epic super funny..
but it wasnt as fun as how we played in sch 1 year back..
HAHAHAHA!
as eugene( uncle) need to head off to his lion dance..
we took photo des..said BYE BYE TO UNCLE!
after tat..we continue playing like nobody's business...
den laugh laugh laugh...rahhh...
after playin until super duper tired alr..
den we rest..
den nelia( birthday girl) and her friends arrived..
talk talk awhile..

after that..
head off to play at the playground...
played the slide..and BOUNCE! BOUNCE BOUNCE!
hahahaas..
it was totally awesome man!!!
HAHAHAAAA!
after that headed home...
eat, bath,watch tv and watch tv..
i was too lazy to use the com la..HAHAHAS!rahhh

there goes my day...
with all the super nice people who brought me tons of sweet memories in my secondary sch life...
although we didnt manage to cycle in the end..
but still, i really enjoyed the time with them...
thanks for such a nice day with you all :D

Messages to the nice people:

Joshua( dumb baby): Hope you like your present! hahahass! i know you had tons of fun with me la! im like sooo nice you know! hahhas..and yupp..i had tons of fun together with you tooo!bleahs!and and..YOUR BIRTHDAY IS OVER! it's my time to BULLY YOU BACK! muahahahahahaazz..in your face man!

Chia Min( twinnie) : Happy to see you not emoing yesterday! hahahass!but you are still very epic!hahahaass!!lalalaa!i know we never cycle abit sad la..but nevermind okay! next time we all go together agn!hahahahaass!!

Hock Ann( uncle) : had an awesome time playin chapteh with you..sorry to keep attacking you with the chapteh la..its not my fault..my leg dun like you! hahahaass!! remember to get me "MY" earpiece next year! =X

Eugene (uncle) : i think you are the only one who still never change la..still as talkative and still very noisy..hahhas...although i didn't contact you much but yeah! hahahas...jiayous FIGHTING!

Daryl Pang: OMG! youu look sooo different man! but its a good thing la hahahas...you know...i didn't know tat you were tat FUNNY! hahahass!!!had a good time with you!hahahaaass!!FUNNY YOU!!!

Reynold: hahahas...the best part about you was " sorry..sorry.." hahahas..its totally like omg!hahhaas..cos all you say throughout the entire time was sorry! hahahassss!it was fun to go out with you :D

Eugene (the shy one) : hahahas you are no longer as shy as before alr la..hahahas..but this time round i never see you bashin up hock ann anymore! WHY!!! hahahahass..must bash him up more..den i can LAUGH!hahahahass!!thanks for yesterday :D

and last but not least...

Nelia (aunt): although didnt spend much time with you yesterday but still..cheer up alright girl...i know you are a strong girl :D we shall go out the next time round without you being late alright...or else you really need to treat us alr la! HAPPY BIRTHDAY GIRL! i still owe you a hug lehs!

as for myself...
EILEEN: hahahas...it's time to let things go and go on with life..there's not a need to get bothered by such things anymore...i had awesome memories with alot of people..that's more than enough alr...CHEER UP GIRL! hahahass! its time to move and and find those who really cares for you :D

tat's all for today..
byebye everyone :D
[[EILEEN]]

想说出心里的话。。
心里总是有那好不安全的感觉
觉得自己好差劲,好没用
觉得自己好自私,好烦,好烂
多希望我能安安全全的睡在我被窝里,
把心里的事情放下,
也把我很不可能的梦想抛开

我常告诉我自己
些事情是不能勉强的
要有耐心,持之以恒
这样我的梦想才会实现

我觉得我好没用
就连追求自己想要的事情也没有这个勇气
就因为我不想再度被拒绝
不想在想些有的没得
就这样,一天一天的过。
活在我不能实现的梦想里

[[周佩雯 启]]

POST POST AND MORE POST! HELLO!
it's WEDNESDAYYY todayyy!!!
currently im rotting at home...
playin game..listen to sonng..
and READ STORY BOOK!
OMGG..can you believe it...
im actually readin???
i think i will be bringing a book to malaysia...
cos i will be taking BUSSS!hahhaass!

okayokay..
tml im going high-tea with NICOLE TAN ANGEL~
hehehzz..happy happy..
actually it was suppose to be today..but too bad..
her mama off..so we postponed it to TML!muahahhaazz!
hehehzz..waffles here i come tml!

den sat will be going cycling with..
joshua, chia min, hock ann, eugene, nelia, daryl pang and reynold...
hehehezz..cant wait for saturday to arrive...
it has been sooo long since all of us gather together..
like how we use to do it last time..
really miss those days.
the chapteh days especially...
let's pray hard tat..
IT'S NOT GONNA RAIN!
and and im gonna take TONS OF PHOTOS!

weather forecast of mine this few days..
what are dreams exactly?
hahahas...while others are working hard for their dream come true...
i shall just sit back and try my best to help others...
but what about my own...
i wish for a dream come true...
like i say I WISH...
i once worked for it too...
but it didn't came true...
so i gave up..and started WISHIN...
i wish upon the star..i wish upon the moon...i wish upon the sun..
wishing that one fine day...
a dream come true...hahahass...

tat's all
byebye!
[[EILEEN]]

BACK POSTING AGNNN~

hello everyone! hahahass

im back posting once agn..

after like soo many days??HAHAA

okay okay..some updates here and there...

FRIDAY...

went out and it was a superb awesome day! hahahass...

laugh laugh walk walk talk talk!!!it was totallly funnnn!

it was the best day ever :D hehezz

SATURDAY...

woke up early in the morning to go for ALUMNI meeting..

den reached although we were late...

we were still the first 3 to reach! OMG..me yiwei and joshua...

HAHAHASSS...i thought i will see many many ppl there alr..

but still we were the earliest!HAHAHA...

den sit there talk talk play play..

den get our post..

im in ADMIN! with huiqun as my HEAD agnnn! LOL!

found out that i will forever be under her!hehehzz...

after that..

blahblahblah..

den went to eat lunch together with nicole, weihow and joshua...

after that...huiqin they all also came..

den we started talkin and laughin!!!

and i have to admit that weihao really talk and laugh super loudly! hahahass!

den after that...

walk walk walk agn...

den went to eat tau hua!!!

it was nice nice nice :D hehehzz

head home and watch tv! hahahasss!!

SUNDAY...

went for band concert..

and wait wait wait for very very long..

den lastly...watch and watch..den blahblahblah..

ate dinner...

play awhile..and headed home..

homed at 8.15...

weather forecast of mine this few days...

raining and sunny both occured this few days...

ups and down...

sometimes...i just feel so retarded...

why must i be this..why must i be that...

why must i do this..why must i do that...

why must things be like this..why must things be like that...

thoughts of mine just go round and round...

i really wonder..

i wish my dreams come true...

but there is only someone who can make my dream come true...

hahahas...it will take some time..but its okay....

i've been counting as each and every single day passed..

who knows one day....it might just come!

and tadaa...my dream come true...

tat's all for today!

byebye!!

[[EILEEN]]

HELLO HUMANS! okay...
i always wanted to post this few days...
but yupp..
IM TOOO LAZYY!!
hahahasss
okay okay

this few days was rather boring..
but not monday la :D
monday went to watch rapunzel with MUM!
hahahas
3D des...very funny...especially the horse!hehehzzz
Tuesday i went to the library to borrow two books...hahahas...one chinse and one english...
wednesday i stayed at home and rot..
thurday which is today..i went to the CHIN'S hse and played UNO and watch the ten brothers..
HAHAHAS!!!

woohoo...
ups and downs this week..
im lazy to post alr..hahahas!
byebye!!

[[EILEEN]]

HELLO!

hello people..

im back posting agn..

hahahas...after this 3 weeks of holiday..

i found out that..hahahas..

im rather friendless la...

now i regret not having a very very close clique...

its just plain boring at home la..

everyone has got their own things to do...

got their own friends to be with...

but it seems like i've got none..

i just got my phone, my television, my sofa, my toys and my bed..

hahahas..

how pathetic can i get?

i dun even find any good games for me to play la...

rahhh...

i've got hundreds and hundreds of friends..

but it seems as if like i have got none..

im just somehow..

living in a world of me and myself..

i once told someone that..

no matter how close im with them..

after o's everything would be over..

and yupp..im right..

he choose not to believe me that time..

and now im right..

i dun even like talk to them at all...

somehow..

it seems like my close friends are like so busy...

charlie and angel busy with work..and home stuff...

weirdos busy with gb...

the crazy few busy with work...cos apparently one of the crazy one need to pay for his camera lens... and another crazy one he also stay at home and rot..but he doesnt come out la...

while sweetheart,uncles and aunties are busy with school..

wad else have i got??

mum,dad,sis working..

bro..all is in his mind is just studying...

hahahas...

i've got nothing...

rahh this sucks...

i've been watchin spongebob,tom and jerry,fairly offparents, phineas and ferb everyday..

and it seems like its repeating over and over agn...

even my dvd doesn't attract me anymore...

rahhh...

wad am i suppose to do..

i hope it would be better next week..

byebye!

[[EILEEN]]

My wishes....
I wish i was the televsion...
So you would watch watch and watch me alll the time...
I wish i was a soccer match..
So that you would keep lookin out for me..
I wish i was your com..
As no matter how long you stare at it you wont be tired..
I dont wish to be unique..
I dont wish to be special..
I just wish tat i am the same as the rest...
Hahahss

[[EILEEN]]

MISSING THOSE DAYS... rahh...
seriously..im missing those days in school..
studying playing eating sleeping getting scolded laughing...
and all the retarded things we do together in school..
and now its like over alr..so fast..so quick...
hahass..
seriously..I MISS 4E2 alottt!!!

next next...
okay...yesterday i went to underwater world, dolphin lagoon,butterfly park and images of singapore in SENTOSA!
i can say tat it was fun la...
but not as fun as i wanted it to be...due to some reasons...
rahhh...
i walk until im like super duper tired la...
as im like lacking of slee the night before..
hahhashaasss....
also also..i touch the stingray and the star fish..omg..
the feeling was like woooohooo and ewww!!hahahass!
it was fun la :D
den walk walk walk.
and reached home at around 5pm

the night was boring..just using my phone to get online..
and watchin tv..rahhh...
how borin can my holidays get??

[[EILEEN]]

BORINGGG~

rahhh..

im super duper bored now!!!

yesterday was fun..as megamind was FUNNY!

and the stupid fish is so stupid!

make me thought tat it was dead...

den i kanna called dumb!rahhhh!!!

anyway..

i went to walk NEX again yesterday...

and i started to feel tat its boring..

OMG! its just like a few days only!

its crowded with like tons and tons of ppl la..

maybe that's the reason why i dun like to go there....

siianx...

currently im stoning at home...

dunno wad to do...

everyone seems to be soooo busy..

rahhhh

im boredddd!!

[[EILEEN]]

Yesterday....
Was a super long long day in school...
Almost wasted my whole day in school..
Rotting and playin jenga..hahaas..
Really missed those days playin jenga...
Muahahaaazz..

After the goh arrived..
Went up to control room to watch the performance and blahblahblah...did stupid things..
Den laugh like mad..
Cos my head hit benjamin head den hahaaaa..
PAIN....
went home with dumb ass..
And reached home at 11pm...
Super duper tiring...
And yupp..
Thks for uncles lovely presentt:))
Tats all
Byebye~
[[EILEEN]]

Hello everyone...right before i set off to my lalaland to meet my prince charming...i shall post abit here and there..hehezz This week was a really short week..got tons of things..and its like alr FRIDAY!
woohoo..there goes my friday..
As i will be wasting my entire day in school...
Den sat would be sleeping day while sunday will be another day out.
Actually...with sooo much activities being carried out... Its just 2 weeks..
Just abit more and i will be done with wad im suppose to do...
And tat makes 14 more days to another unique day of us:)

Sl campfire was fun...hahas..it brought me back to my campfire days.
The only different thing is tat this time round. Im attendin it as a senior..not as a camper.
I miss those studyin days in school...
Woohooo~ its shaggy but its really fun..

Its really true tat after we lose a thing..den we will finally realised how important tat thing was to us..
Some people will blame the others for such a scene to happen..but the fact is tat...they are the one who caused this ending...
No one will admit that they are wrong themselves..
Everyone will see wad the other person is doing and pin-point them..
But who will actually reflect themselves at the mirror and see how much they have changed..
Hahaha...
I was rather affected by wad i read somewhere... But it didnt affect me tat much...tks to sweetheart...

Sometimes i really wonder wad gave me the strength to be so strong...and wad gave me the mind to cherish.
Im cherishin each and every part of my life..
My family,my friends,my baby,my soft toys and each and everythin of mine.
Each and everyone of those are just like jigsaw puzzle.
Without any of them..my life wont be completed!! Good night humans...
Byebye
[[EILEEN]]

NEW HAIR CUT!

wooohoo...

last week and this week was like a woohooo weeekk!

hahahass!

and yupp..i finally cut my hair...

and its like super duper short now okay!

and its totally alot of difference if i put my hair in a different way..muahahhaaz...

anywayy...

going to sentosa for chalet was rather interesting la...

walk super duper long in the middle of the night..

went swimmin in the pool at like 11+ pm...

hahhaas...

its a interesting experience la..

but too bad...

THE ROOM IS TOOO DIRTY!

hahahassss!!!

next next....

today i went to eat lunch with mum,xuemin, poh siew aunty and lu tai tai

hahahass

ate alot alot alot..

den set off to meet si hui and chin yi...

walked...

and ate berrylite waffles...

den went to play arcade..it was like wooohoo fun!!

hahahass!!

play until my hands are like super tiredd..

rahh..

tat's all for today..

tml going to go to school for rehearsal..

and going to school at night for SL camp campfire..

hahahasss!

tat's all

byebye!!

[[EILEEN]]

BORED~

BORED!!

lalalallalalalalala~

hehezz

bye!

HELLO!

hello..im back posting agn...

dun really have a really good mood right now to post anythin out..

but im just going to blog out wad happened today...

woke up early in the morning...den prepare prepare..

and went to tangs with my mum...

bought a steamer and a mixer...

den bought TOYS!! hahahaass

after that went to walk walk walk..and blahblahblah...

went high tea at douby and i saw JOLIAN! woohoo!

hahahass!

the waffles was nice...was thinkin about someone in particular to go and eat with next time..

shall see what happen next bahs...

bought 3 new drama to watch too..hahahass..

i think tat will be what i will be doing for the next few days...

has been plannin planning and more planning..

hope it goes well...

tat's all..byebye

[[EILEEN]]

ITS FINALLY OVERRRRR!!
Woohoo...im sooo happy tat os are like finally over!
I looked forward for like super duper longggg!
Sooo happy...many bad things happened this week..
But yet thanks to many ppl who brighten up my day..
I LOVE YOU GUY AND GIRLSSS!!
Shall keep this short as i will be posting a much longer one a few days later..got tons of things for me to do..
Shall hope tat everythin goes well~
BYEBYE!
[[EILEEN]]

SOCIAL STUDIES IS OVER TOOOO!!!~.~ alright..
there goes my english, maths and combine humans...
goodbye to miss lan, mr yeo and mrs tan!

wednesday i would be saying goodbye to mdm de
friday i would be saying goodbye to miss lim..
and next monday i would be saying goodbye to miss kok!
and at the same time, GOODBYE TO O'LEVELS!

shall say while other say goodbye to o's this friday...
i would still be studyin at home la :(
feeling abit sad..but yeah..nevermind la...
haiish...
we got 4 months to play! 2 days nevermind de la!!
but still!!~~~~ hahahhahaaass!
the previous week was like wooohooo!!!
bio paper was managable...
as for history..im sooo worried that im going out of point...
rahh
den i went to east coast to stay over for a night...
it was a very interesting experience la...
especially the watchin the sunrise part..
COOL i have to say!
hahaaas

rahhh....
im super tired..but i dun feel like sleeping..
gonna spend the next few weeks planning at doing things! hehehezzz!!
to say this in advance...
HAPPY HOLIDAYS!
when i say holiday, i really meant HOLIDAYYY!!!

Hello everyone...
Before i sleep i shall post abit of here and there la..muahahaazz..
Heres a bad news..ive been slacking this few days...got study..but not alot..omg...im sooo worried now....
Rahhhh..but tml im going full force studyin alr..no more fooling around....
Its just like 15 more days till 4 months of holiday!?!?hahahas...maybe got more la..rahhh...
Im lookin forward....anyway...heres a very interesting thing...
Im going CAMPING with my family next thursday!hahahas....
Im havin my os but yupp..im spending my day with them..
It has been like woohoo long since i last went to the beach to set up and tent there and stay overnight...

I still remember when i was young..whenever we decided to go to the beach..IT WOULD ALWAYS RAIN!!hahaha..den laastly we have to camp inside the VAN!!hahahas...
I really miss thoses days...

Rahhh...
Tata all for today!tml going back to school to study bio and history!muahahahazz!!
Jiayous EILEEN CHEW!!
LETS START TO COUNT DOWN TO PARTTYYYYY!!
Byebye!!

[[EILEEN]]

MESSY!!
hello everyone!
a very good reason for why am i posting now is because..
IM TAKING A BREAK TODAY!
its like finally END OF THIS WEEK!
i have been waiting for this to happen like SUPER LONNG!
muahahahhaaazzz
anyway after this entire week of papers...
TODAY PAPERS WAS THE WORST!!!
rahhh
i dun like today!!!!

i hope hope hope tat time will pass really really fast..
and 15 nov will reach very very soon!
den its time to go PARTYYY!! muahahaazzz
tat's all for today la..
byebye!

[[EILEEN]]

HELLO EVERYONE... maybe this will be the last time posting my blog until like a few weeks later?
hahahas..
as O'S IS LIKE 2 DAYS AWAY!
im scared..im afraid..perhaps im just ready for my e-maths..
and my humanities only..the rest im still trying to study as much as i can...
23 more days O'S will end...
jiayous jiayous eileen chew!
i can do it des....
i promise that i wont get affected by anythin anymore..
i dunwan to regret anything..
and i wanna to do well..
i worked so hard for 4 years just for this 21 days...
jiayous!!!!!!

next up...
i dunno why...
but my emotions have been like going up and down....
i sob in bed randomly...
i laugh to myself randomly..
i think i've gone abit insane...
i hope that people around me would give in to me bahs...
as i dunno what the hell im doing at times too...
deep thoughts in me...
不懂为什么会有着种感觉，
但心里却非常的不安。
很没有安全感...
can someone get me out of this??
tat's alll!
byebye!

[[EILEEN]]

Hello everyone!
Im currently on the way to study!!muahahhaxx..
Anyway..heres the thing! <b> HAPPY GRADUATION!!</b>

Ive been looking forward for this day and it finally arrived...
After 4 years in yuying...
Laughin smiling crying and getting tortured...
Hahhas...
It marks another part of my life...
Although i will still be going back to school for some extra lessons at times..but i doubt i will be attending any more frc!or singing anymore school song!!
Muahahaazz...

I had fun together with my class mates!
But most of all..
I enjoyed myself the most with our sweet npcc ppl...
Although its like always we this few only..but we really had fun together...
Louis,samson,edwin,si min,suhana...
While all of them set off to their higher journey to becoming a CI...
I shall stay put and become the best foy ever...
I shall keep my promise as thats the most i can do..
Hahhas..
Biggest thank you to the following ppl who made a big change in my life during my sec 4 period: mr peh daddy, mr yeo, miss kok,miss lim, miss lan and not forgetting mdm de...

Next my beloved friends who injected laughters into my life: chin yi,si hui,edwin,wei cheng,kian meng,chetwin,samson,louis,si min,suhana,yun yue,kelly,cheryl,jia xin not forgetting my beloved charlie and angel...nicole and hisyam....p.s sorry if i left anyone out..

Maybe without you guys...this period would be a really really tough time for me...
With you guys stuffing tissue through my hands when im crying...
And helplessly standing there to tell me to stay strong...
THANK YOU for everything...

I hope that we will still be really good friends even after our o's and hope that 10 years later...during our biggest day..our wedding day..everyone would still be together...
I love you guys!!

[[EILEEN]]

Hello human beings...
Shall keep this post really short...
ITS GRADUATION DAY tml...
Rahh...i hope tat it would be a really memoriable day...
Im falling in love with my class...
Hahas...
But too bad..its time to say good bye!!hahahas...

And yupp..i love all my teachers too!!
Hehehzz..gonna sleep soon..hope i wont pain here pain ther tonight!!rahh..byebye

[[EILEEN]]

Hello everyone...
Im here to update here and there..
And yupp!!im officially 16 alr!!muahahaazz...
Currently..i going to get started with bio and later on history as there will be tests tml!!

Rahh...
While other ppl in the school ends their exam tml...
I still got 1 more month before i can say good bye to everything..
And on monday would be my last day of school!!im sooooo happy!!
Although tons of my memories were from the school...but those sucky memories would never leave me...

The sweet memories with npcc..
The sweet memories with mes..
The sweet memories with my class
The sweet memories with charlie and his angels..
The sweet memories with my sweethearts..
The sweet memories with my besties!!
The sweet memories with my seniors!!!!

Hahhaas...
I hope all this good memories would stay with me forever!tats all for today.
Time to get started to study!!
Byebye!!

[[EILEEN]]

Hello everyone...
Im soooo sorry tat it has been like super duper long since i last updated...
Anyway....before i start studying at 7.30..
I shall update abit about my wooohoo weekend...

Saturday...
It was the best celebration ever as i finally went to the BOTANICAL GARDEN!!
Saw GIANT TREES! And even walk likee the entire garden...
Hehehzz..it was super duper fun...
Especially thr part where i feed the terrapins and fishes..and saying: ahhh guuu!!you very dumb lehs..dun let the fish eat your food!!!rahhh...
Apparrently..ive been known as CRAZY!but im use to tat...
As i do have two dumb terrapins at home..muahahazz..
Feeding the ducks were really fun tooo!!as its like...we were feeling the ducks..den tons of pigeons flew over to like fight the food with the ducks...den its like SUPER DUPER SCARY TOO!although im not afraid of them..hahaha...
Ducks are like super cute!!and somethin i found out..
I think ppl might think im like out of the world...but...
DUCKS CAN FLY!!hahhass..
I was really shocked when i saw they flying..
I didnt know that they could fly until saturday!!hahahaaa...
Also,played frisbee at the big big grass patch was super fun!ans i think it has been like super long since i played frisbee!!hehehzz...
Arrive home at 8pm...watch my fav show as it was the last episode...and watch even more tv..
And ended my day with a good night sleep!!

Sunday!
It was my relative wedding and his a dj of 100.3fm...
Woke up at around 11 plus...watch kim takgu till 1.30...
Had my hair mask and bath untill around 2 plus.started doing bio until 4 plus..
Ate roti prata as i was hungry!
And started to get prepared for the big day!!
I was forced to put on make up which made me go very lala as i really hate thr uncomfortable feeling...
After tons of blah blah blah and so on, we set off the fairmount singapore at rafflea city area..
Drank cocktail and went into the dinner area...
After that..i was like looking at the gifts they prepared and it waa like super duper cute!!hahahas..
Also i notice that their spot lights are really pretty too!!maybe im like tooo into mes for me to notice such things...lalallaa...
Food was so-so...but the wedding was like super sweet...
And i also saw my uncle whom i think ive not seen him for years..hahahss...he look much darker now after alot of swimming..
Always see him on television but i dont see him often in real life...hahhass
Also,i saw ah-ben and shi xin hui!!hahahss!!
Blahblahblah..and reached home at 11.35pm...
Blahblahblah with stuffs..and went to bed at 1230...
But i think i drank too much tea and i was CANNOT SLEEP!
And i lastly fall asleep at 2am..
Rahhhh...

Last part of my post for today...
I found out tat ive got a really cool family line actually as 2 of my relative are artists!!its like very hard to get 2 in a family line!??hahahss...im happy to have them part of my family!!

Alright alright..
Time to go and mugg hard with my books alr..
Byebye everyone!!

[[EILEEN]]

Greetings human beings....
Today marks 19 more days to o'levels..
Im terrified....

Everythin seems so like laggin behind...
And time seems to be like running away...
But yet...i've been breaking down over and over again...
The horoscope from i weekly this week ish so true...
My emotions has been going up and down...
And today...i felt really terrible...
Maybe i should say..this two days i've been feeling terrible..

I cant understand why parents aren't giving their fullest support to us now...its so damn crucial!!but why cant they stand in our shoes and know wad we really need right now...
Alright.. Shall say out what i've always wanted to tell my mum..
But i doubt i will have a chance to tell her...
I want to tell you tat your words really hurt alot....even i know you really do care for me..but your words just hurts...
Everytime i wanna tell you how i really feel...all you will always say ish that 我在跟你顶嘴..but to.be frank..ive. never wanted to fight back.with you..but all i wanted to do was to let you know how i really feel...
Do you know that because of your words i cried so hard??
Do you know that because of your words i wanted to prove you wrong so much!but whenever i fail...i would just break down and feel that you are right..
Do you know that i always wanted more attention from you?
Do you know how much i envy sister when you can laugh and talk to her everytime..but to me...im always like just someone else and we can never sit down and talk...
Do you know how much things you did to me had made me have the thoughts of just going to die?
Do you know how much i wish that whenever we go shopping,you will like the clothes i choose..not my sister's..
Do you know i wish tat there will be a day when you tell me you are proud of me..
Do you know how much i wanna hear from you words of encouragement like "you can do it des" or "just do your best"
Do you know how much i really love you??

Haiish...
As i type all this...tears rolled down again....how i wish all this will happen...it shall be a birthday wish perhaps..since i know that it will never happen..why not i just say it out to make me feel better...
Its never easy to stay strong whenever such things happen.it might just be like harsh words..but you will never know how much the pain last...i can never be as good as my siblings..they are smart..while im just the useless one..i can never be persuasive to you...cos im like the one who ish full of rubbish...how i hope tat im my sister for a day...so that i would be able to discuss with you lots of things...and smile through the day..

Tats all for today bahs..
I hope tml shall be a better day..
Good bye human beings...

[[EILEEN]]

Hello everyone..
Im back posting again...
Today,didnt go to school...
And i went to study with chin yi today...
Had alot of fun today with her...
Studied alot..and laugh alot too!!how i wish we have study break so tat we can really study more...

Anyway..here's an interesting news...
Only 18 ppl from my class went to school today!!
Hahahss..its like WOOHOO..
didnt expect tat more that half the class didnt went to school today...
Rahhh...anyway..i will be going to school tml..
Cos i wont pon school this week anymore??
Most likely i will only pon once a week to stay at home and study...
Hahahahass....

Last but not least fot today's post...
Today ish a special day....
But its not special at all...
Its just like no other day...but just tat...haiish...
Forget it bahs...sometimes..i just dunno wad am i suppose to say or do!!!
Sometimes...i just wish tat attention will be fully on me just for a day..
Maybe just a day will do...haiish...

Tats all bahs..
Goodbye everyone...
[[EILEEN]]

Hello human being..im back posting once again...
Wore contact lens to school today..but my eyes were feeling too tired..so i decided to take it out and wore my funky specs...
Rahhh...although its weird..but actually its more comfy..
But i just feel that i loook REALLYYY WEIRDDD!!

Haiish..i dunno why...
But im feeling rather emotional..
Rahhh...today i felt like cryin in class...
But i just held it back and just sit there and stare into blank..
Haiish...i feel rreallyy rahhh..
How i hope someone can hear me out with their heart...
But apparrently..i cant really find someone whom i can talk to...
I need someone to be there for me when i need him...and someone to be there for me to cheer me up and make me go lalala...
Actually..im sick and tired of the people around me..and at the same time...i feel that actually human beings are really scary..
You wont know who will stab you behind you back...
And you wont know who realy treat you as their true friend...

Hahas..i really wonder why are human beings like this..i cant say much...as im a human being too..

Haiish...tats all for today my loves ones!!
Byebye...

[[EILEEN]]

NOSE DROPPING OUT AGAIN!!!



rahhh..
i think my nose ish really going to fall off VERY VERY SOON!
it's like SUPER DUPER ITCHY! and i've been SNEEZING ALL DAY LONG!!
rahhh...
i've been very hardworking this week!
i did my bio and my maths :D hehehzz
im sooo proud of myself! hahaaasss!

anyway..i'm craving for CUPCAKES!
pretty pretty cupcakes! hehezz!
i also dunno why! but i just feel like seeing pretty pretty things..
and eating sweet sweet things..
and not just chocolates or sweet!i wanna see pretty pretty things..
and enjoy them!muahahhaazz!

next week ish going to be a really really tough week..
cos got tons of test coming up!
rahhh!
JIAYOUS TO ME~~~~~

byebye!
[[EILEEN]]

OMMGGGG!

rahhh...
okay..i think for my next life..
im going to become a tree...
as i think im killing a tree everyday for their papers??LOL!
wooohooo...
this few days have been really really tiring..filled with work work and more work..
and it's like finally FRIDAY!
i think i've been studying at least 12 hrs per day! omggggg
but i can't do anything else..as i've got only like 24 days left???
rahhhh!
im scared..im worried..i just wanna do my best..
rahhh!!

anyway...
thank you to JOSHUA for coming to study with me today!
hehehezz..cos i was actually studying alone..
den he came to study with me..
im another word..look at me study!
yeahh..and i've got oreo from him for childrens' day present :D
lols!
jiayous EILEEN!
ohh ohh...
1 last thing...

HAPPY CHILDRENS' DAY!

[[EILEEN]]

Hello human beings...
Im currently im school now..and waiting for time to pass...rahhhh..im super duper tired!!
I hope today will be a good day!or else i think i will fall asleep in class!!hehheezz..

Gonna study with chinyi today:) actually...we have been studying together quite common recently..
Tats all for now!!
Byebye

[[EILEEN]]

HORRIBLE TERRIBLE!



rahhh..im back posting for yesterday and for today...
i wanted to post everything out yesterday..but i was too busy studying..
while today, i just didn't have the mood to study...
so i decided to pop by and update my blog....

so lets talk about yesterday!
good things about yesterday: i settled myself down to study and i did study quite a lot...and also, i had fun when i was studying and i was CONCENTRATING!last but not least...did a survey for MOE and i Shoot everything that i'm unhappy about..but whatever i said was the FACT!
bad things about yesterday: got shoot by a stupid teacher again...apparently, im really pissed off and feel like walking out of class just like this...and i really feel like screaming and shouting at her and ask her to SHOOO OFF! and tell her I HATE CHINESE and i will NEVER LOVE IT AGAIN! and the reason to why i hate chinese..ISH BECAUSE OF HER!

now..about today!
good things about today: i finally move my seats in front..people might think that it's not a good thing to move in front, but to me..its actually good...as this just means that i can concentrate alot more and stop slacking!it's quite fun sitting in front la...but there are pros and cons to it!
bad things about today:i can't concentrate at all today...as it's very very super duper noisy! and i just can't solve my a-maths questions! i feel that doing a-maths ish really KILLING ME!i tried to change to doing e-maths but i wasn't confident with my answers..i dunno why..maybe its a-maths that caused me to feel this way...so i've decided to study the subjects im confident in, before touching the not so good ones! they sure will boost my morale!

rahhh...
this two days are bad days....
rahhh..tat's all
byebye!
[[EILEEN]]

Hello everyone!!
Muahahaazz..im randoming uploading today as its sunday!and i didnt upload this afternoon!
Hehheezz...
Anyway shall just keep this post short la...
Cos im rather tired..
Actually im just here to wish and pray hard that tml will be a better day...
With much more laughters and smiles...
And without the failure of my chemistry..
I hope that i will pass!!i pray hard!!
Rahhh..anyway..i had a weird dream yesterday night..
Ans its not a good dream too..
Can't really remember the details..
But i hope this dream doesnt come true...
Tat's all ppl!
Byebye!

[[EILEEN]]

STUDYING...

okayyy...

went to study with si hui, chin yi and yi ling today....

but it was raining so we went to yi ling hse and study!

and yupp we did chemistry and took a lot of photos!

also also! her sister ish realllly CUTE :D

actually i did enjoy studyin with them la...

but most probably i will only study with them every sat cos sunday i will be studyin by myself...

it's fun today...and i did absorb some too!

muhahahaazz!

next next...

i really feel that my sister ish such a IDIOT man!

i just feel very irritated by her la..

say dunwan to work anymore..cos she dun have enough time to study...

den blahblahblah..and now she OUT again with her FRIENDS!

and say she doesnt have time..what the hell ish that man..

its just STUPID okay!

stop acting la! its just making me feel that she's more and more disgusting!

rahhh!!

tat's all for today..

byebye human beings!!

[[EILEEN]]

RAHHHH!
i felt like SCREAMING OUT LOOOUUDD TODAY!
its totally SUAY this week!!
rahhh....
out of 3 days..i've been aimed for 2 days!
WTH!
i do well she will also say me..i do badly she also say me!
what the hell ish wrong with her man!rahhh..
today i really felt like screaming at her to tell her to shut up and SHOO OFF!
but i held back...as my muscles were hurting and i have 1 more month to go only..
i will SHOOT HER BACK ONE DAY MAN! I PROMISE!
rahhhhhhh!
anyway...this few days i've been like slacking abit here and there...
although i did study..but didn't study much la..
gonna start all over again tml..
going to build my studying time up again! muahahhaaazzz
1 more month to go...
51 more days to end of 0 levels..
muahahhaaazzz!!
tat's all for today!
i've got pretty photos today :D

[[EILEEN]]

MR YEO'S BIRTHDAY :D


alright...
yesterday was mr yeo's birthday...
had alot alot of fun and it was like really really funny la :D
although yesterday was horrible as we took back our results..
but aiya..its just prelims! rahhh!
but i've alr set my aims right this time round alr :D
i might not get into the course i want..but i will try hard :D
and i will practice until im CARELESS FREE!
okay okay..back to mr yeo's celebration...
went to collect the cake together with chin yi, si hui and cheryl tan..
den after that, we were like walkin super duper fast!
den everyone was super duper tired la..
so mr yeo came down and we started singing happy birthhdayy~
den we also bought the relighting candle..
and he was blowing like mad!!!
next next!
cake smashing time...was like woooohooo..
toook a super duper long time until we finally smashed his face!
and we were like laughin like madddddd!~
had alot of fun la! and i think tat mr yeo had total fun with us too!
muahahaazz!!
tat's all!
lalalas!
byebye!

[[EILEEN]]

HELLO HUMAN BEINGS!!
im back posting again before i go to sleep..
As im worried for tml's paper

You know what..u hope tat there will be a fairy godmother to appear in front of me tml...and teach me how to do the paper.
I've beenn trying really hard to tell myself i can do it for a-maths...
And i did practice..and i actually do understand the toopic..
But when im in the examination hall..i tend to like forget everythin and just give up...
Rahhh..wad am i suppose to do..
I have the urge to give up on a-maths..in other words,to drop the subject...
But ish it too late now...
And how am i suppose to prove to my mum des?
Im scared..im worried..but what am i suppose to do exactly??rahhh...
Can someone just lighten me up with some suggestions??
Tats all for now...

Good night everyone~
Sweet dreams...
ITS THE LAST PAPER FOR PRELIMS TML:)

[[EILEEN]]

BLAHBLAHBLAH.. SUNDAY ONCE AGAIN!rahhh....alright..im back posting again...
i tried to study in a-maths just now..and apparently, i failed..
i think my heart and brain gave up on a-maths alr..
i dunno why!!maybe cos im just not good at it?
hahas!!
this morning was hell to me!
first of all i just wanted to get tons and tons of sleep..
den i hear my dad and mum screaming and shouting..
they wasnt quarreling! but its the way the communicate..
den i got sooo irritated...after that..dad came to wake me up to mumm mumm
so i woke up den mum and dad were screaming and shouting again! rahhh!
den i feel soooo RAWR!!!!! can't i have some peace on a sunday morning?

it has been like 5 hrs since i last text...
rahhh....the feeling ish weird la..i dunno why! hahas..
forget it la..shall leave my phone aside till the vibrate and rings again!:(
why ish today such a long day..i hope tml faster arrive...and i sit for the last useless paper..
and im off for a break for the next few days...
im tired!
rahhh!
tat's all for today bahs!
byebye aliens!

[[EILEEN]]

GATHERING OF THE THREE WEIRDOS! alright...
IM SUPER DUPER HAPPY TODAY! due to the following reasons:
1. prelims are finally going to be OVER! this means i can finally have 1-2 days of break!
2. went out with my friends! our friendship has lasted for err around 10 years?i think so?
3. ate waffles with ice cream in a super cool cafe!
4. took tons and tons of pictures!

had total FUN TODAY!
happy happy!
and im like tired also la!! rahhh!
i dunno wad to post suddenly..
i've got alot of things to say..but suddenly..im BLANK!! hehezz!!
byebye world!

[[EILEEN]]

HELLO!
alright..im back bloggin for today..
First of all..im happy to say tat i can do both the papers today..
And next up..i made a new friend today:)) maybe its like a old friend..but just tat our friendship start all over again..
And last but not least...27 more days to sweet sixteen!:-P

BAD NEWS...
1. Im so damn worried for tomorrow's biology paper..
2. Forty more days to o levels..
3. Currently..in a rather bad mood perhaps...argueing with someone..haiish..

Tat's all for today.
Good night readers...

[[EILEEN]]

SCREW-ED...

alright..its a BAD BAD day..from the start...

firstly...first day of term 4 ish HORRIBLE!

when we went to assemble at the parade square...

we were alr like being shouted like as if we did something wrong or wad so ever...

den ask us to stand sit stand sit...

lastly we stand throughout the entire FRC!it was like WTH!

the weather ish like soooo freakin hot alr..

and we were like trying to do some last revision before we go up for our exams!

and its like totally wad the hell for us to do that!?

it's retarded la...we should understand that its the first day of term 4 afterall..

just give in abit also cannot mehs?retarded!

its just like as if the school ish not a place for education..but more like a school for training?or wad so ever!

so we went up for our english paper 2...

the paper was rather okay la...first passage was interesting..

but when it came to the second passage..i totally felt like I WANNA SLEEP!

rahhh!

also, my thumb was hurting rather badly as the skin was peeling off..

i thought it became better, but lastly after applying pressure and writing so much, the skin broke again!my poor skin..and now, im putting alot of lotion and make it heal again :D

after that...had break until 1045...

was really scared for my a-maths paper...

i told myself that i will be able to do it.

but lastly..I SCREWED it up! :(

was feeling like on the edge of crying la...

doing the paper just made me feel so demoralised..

its like im just not good at it...

no matter how hard i try...

i just can't do it! den..i was thinkin about what my mum said...and wad mr yeo told me...

at that moment in time..i just suddenly agree with my mum saying that why i study so much...since no matter how i study i also wont do well and get such crappy results de mahs...

den i thought of what mr yeo said..that i have to prove her wrong...

i wanna prove her wrong so badly that i just keep trying to mug and mug..

and lastly i still SCREW my paper up..

i was feeling so damn useless by then...when i get back my results..im just proving to her that..yeah im right...im lousy...the feeling really sucks like mad...

went home...actually wanted to go out to study..but lastly..due to some reason..was unable to go out and study...1. to relax myself down..2. to absorb in wad im havin tml..

apparently...there's alot of things that require two things, in order to get the thing you want...

for example:

telling yourself you can do it and never work hard for it doesn't work...which applies the other way round too...only movitating yourself and taking actions do work!

one hand can never clap..it requires 2 hands in order to make a piak* sound...

wanting something but not taking actions to get that thing doesnt work too...

its a horrible life...

anyway... a piece of good news: 28 MORE DAYS TO SWEET 16!

and.......... a piece of bad news: O'LVLS ish 41 days away! =X

tat's all for today...

sayonarah everyone..

[[EILEEN]]