SCREW-ED...

alright..its a BAD BAD day..from the start...

firstly...first day of term 4 ish HORRIBLE!

when we went to assemble at the parade square...

we were alr like being shouted like as if we did something wrong or wad so ever...

den ask us to stand sit stand sit...

lastly we stand throughout the entire FRC!it was like WTH!

the weather ish like soooo freakin hot alr..

and we were like trying to do some last revision before we go up for our exams!

and its like totally wad the hell for us to do that!?

it's retarded la...we should understand that its the first day of term 4 afterall..

just give in abit also cannot mehs?retarded!

its just like as if the school ish not a place for education..but more like a school for training?or wad so ever!

so we went up for our english paper 2...

the paper was rather okay la...first passage was interesting..

but when it came to the second passage..i totally felt like I WANNA SLEEP!

rahhh!

also, my thumb was hurting rather badly as the skin was peeling off..

i thought it became better, but lastly after applying pressure and writing so much, the skin broke again!my poor skin..and now, im putting alot of lotion and make it heal again :D

after that...had break until 1045...

was really scared for my a-maths paper...

i told myself that i will be able to do it.

but lastly..I SCREWED it up! :(

was feeling like on the edge of crying la...

doing the paper just made me feel so demoralised..

its like im just not good at it...

no matter how hard i try...

i just can't do it! den..i was thinkin about what my mum said...and wad mr yeo told me...

at that moment in time..i just suddenly agree with my mum saying that why i study so much...since no matter how i study i also wont do well and get such crappy results de mahs...

den i thought of what mr yeo said..that i have to prove her wrong...

i wanna prove her wrong so badly that i just keep trying to mug and mug..

and lastly i still SCREW my paper up..

i was feeling so damn useless by then...when i get back my results..im just proving to her that..yeah im right...im lousy...the feeling really sucks like mad...

went home...actually wanted to go out to study..but lastly..due to some reason..was unable to go out and study...1. to relax myself down..2. to absorb in wad im havin tml..

apparently...there's alot of things that require two things, in order to get the thing you want...

for example:

telling yourself you can do it and never work hard for it doesn't work...which applies the other way round too...only movitating yourself and taking actions do work!

one hand can never clap..it requires 2 hands in order to make a piak* sound...

wanting something but not taking actions to get that thing doesnt work too...

its a horrible life...

anyway... a piece of good news: 28 MORE DAYS TO SWEET 16!

and.......... a piece of bad news: O'LVLS ish 41 days away! =X

tat's all for today...

sayonarah everyone..

[[EILEEN]]