this joke ish like super long ago des..

but its rather funny!!
hahas...

today..

mr yeo gave us 8 sets of maths exam papers for us to do..

and we are suppose to hand in on monday..

hahas..

but today im super guaii...

i did 4 papers lehs..

4 more to go!!

JIAYOUS MAN EILEEN!!

YOU CAN DO IT DES!!
WAHAHAS!!

super tired...

feel that my brain cells are dead..

but i cant afford to lose out..

as i dun want to score badly bahs...

today..

was called up to stage by mr lawrence...

was selected to go for OBS...

im still thinkin whether im going anot bahs..

its a realli good opportunity..

but still..

my dad advise me not to go bahs...

partially because of my lousy health..

and another part..

i shall not say much...

2 more WEEKS to EXAM!!!

ahhh...

stressed..

im gonna study hard..

realli gonna study hard..

i dunwan any more C's man!!!

B's and above!!!

THAT'S MY TARGET!!!

tats all..

jiayous!!

x3x3!!

[[EILEEN]]

MATHS!!!
hahas..

im realli crazy about maths man!!!
LOL!!!

anyway..

tml would be english and mother tongue paper 1 lehs!!
OMG!!!

stressed...

hope i wont have any 错别字！！！

or else mdm de will take a chopper and chop me into pieces man!!
hahas..

GD LUCK EVERYONE!!=)

x3x3

[[EILEEN]]

hahas...

tuesday would be our first paper!!

OMG!!!

and im like not studyin today..?

i also dunno why..

totalli no mood at all..

as i also dunno why..

realli tired..

studyin ish rather fun bahs..

but i feel so bored today..

so i din study..

X.x

die die...

have to revise my sec 1 and 2 maths work soon..

as its gonna come out!!
OMG!!

im realli gonna be dead this time..

still have history,social studies,chemistry,mt...

ahhh!!

my life ish like rotating around maths man..

wad am i suppose to do..

i have to do well for my other subjects too!!
ahhhH!!!

tats all..

byebye!!

[[EILEEN]]

x3 ilove seeing your smile=) x3

was chatting with someone online..
den tat person said that his emoing..
hahas...
and i was like telling him...
每件事情都要往好的方面想。。。
but i realli wonder..
why sayin ish easy..
but doin it ish so hard...
thank you JOANNE AND JAMAL!!!

thanks for being by my side...
supporting me..
thanks for everything you guys said...
thank you mr peh...
for his msg yesterday..
although it might be realli short..
but thats kind of a promise...
i thank you alot..

wooh..
today studied alot..
maths and bio..
hahas...
now im gonna bury myself with studies for this two weeks..
before i get my head over my cca stuff again..
this period of time..
dun care so much first..
study first...
hope that after our mid-year..
everythin would be fine again...=)

[[EILEEN]]

im trying to smile...
trying to smile realli hard..
but i realli wonder...
why its so hard...
for me just to smile...
happily...
truly...

haiish..
currently..
im like stuck in the trees bahs...
i cried today..
felt realli sad...
realli dissapointed...
if i realli have to use a word to discribe how i feel bahs..
i realli wonder..
wad ish realli happening...
WADS UP WITH THE SEC 3 SQUAD..?
WADS WRONG WITH EVERYONE.?
WHERE HAD MY BIG BIG FAMILY GONE TO?
I REALLI WONDER..

feel realli upset...
realli down bahs..
i wish i could have somethin in my mind..
but i just feel so blank...
feel so useless...
haiish...

[[EILEEN]]

weeeeeeeeeee...
back postin after 2 to 3 days..?
hahas..
didn't manage to use the com..
as im busy STUDYING!!
hahas..
finalli level test over lehs..
can relax just for a day..
den will go back studyin again..

hahas..
my sister said that im turning into my brother..
keep studyin..
but the reason behind this ish that..
i doesnt want to regret in the future bahs..
hahas...

EXAMS ROUND THe CORNER!!
JIAYOUS EILEEN!!=)
byebye!
[[EILEEN]]

weeeeeeeeeeee!!!

finalli got chocolate to eat lehs..

hahas..

help me destress!!

hahas..

super tired..

so stress..

hahas..

tats all..

byebye!

[[EILEEN]]

wahahahaassss
yesterday was realli realli a super gd day..??
somehow..
hahas

reached school at 0809...
hahs..
den waited for maths lesson to start..
0830-1030 was maths..
feel so bored doing maths.
den halfway through..
morning msg someone..
hahas..
den wake him up..
wahahas..
im so EVIL yeah!!
LOL!!!

den went to mac to have breakfast with huiyu,kelly and edwin..
hahas..
den laugh laugh laugh..
like crazy like that..
after eating..
went back school to polish boots..
den a idiot come..
hahas..
hu cares..
den we sit in the quadrangle..
super hot siia..
hahas..
den eat chocolate there..

after that fall in..
den blahblahblah..
slept like a piggie on the bus..
cos im super tired...
reached there..
did ushering..
den watch the parade...

after that.
went to lot 1 with samson,joshua,seri,amirul,hidayah and jimmy..
they had their dinner while i pei them...
den we went home..
reached home at around 10..
was like..
so tired..
ate my dinner..
and went to sleep...
hhahas..

yesterday was realli a tiring day..
but it was fun=)
tats al..
byebye!
[[EILEEN]]

x3x3x3 iloveyou..?iloveyounot...x3x3x3

weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!
today went for JENGA COMPETITION!!
as we manage to clinched the CAMPION again=)
so HAPPY!!
smilex..
but this time round,
dun have trophy for the unit..
duno whether wan give my trophy to unit anot..
cos i also got no use taking it..
why not give it to the unit..
den keep inside as memory=)
hahas..
see how first..

tml would be a long long day..
=)
byebye!
[[EILEEN]]

WOOHH!!!
today test was like okayy okayy luhs..
my full marks gone lehs..
cos i noe i got some careless here and there..
and some crap..
hahas...

bio was okayy..
hope that i passed bahs..
wahahaass...

today the sec 4's took their staff sargent test..
hahas..
MONKEY will pass de luhs..
dun worrie=)
but you seems confident=)
so no worries=)

tml would be jenga competition=)
yeahh..
can see wanting,zhi ying,linda,sophia and so on!!
hahas..
i realli miss them=)
wish me luck=)

byebye!!
[[EILEEN]]

wooh...
today ish like super BUSY!!
hahas..
didn't go for tuition..
if i went..
i would have failed my bio test tml..
and would not be able to sleep tonight...
but i dun think i reali managed to sleep yesterday...

hahas..
reached home at around 6..
den started study at 7...
1 hr of revision of maths...
1.5 hrs of writing notes for bio [enzymes]
1.5 hrs of campfire proposal which had to be sumitted by today...

feel realli tired now..
still got alot of things for me to settle tml...

->have to confirm hu wants to go OBS...
->inform ppl going of jenga competition on time to meet up...
->remind peeps that sat got NPAP duty...
->M.E.S name list to be given to the infocomm teacher.
->ppl to hibernate in M.E.S
->tml how gonna play the music when the cable ish like dead...

wooh..
so mani things...
so filled up..
maybe its something gd..
but im starting to feel quite alot of pressure on me..
i will carry on to work hard..
hahas..
=)
wish me luck for tml a-maths and bio test=)
byebye=)

[[EILEEN]]

maybe..
now isnt the time for me to look out for you..
its time to let it go...
as i have to noe what i got to do right now...

IM SO HARDWORKING TODAY!!
hahas!!
have to praise myself abit..
i finish all my maths homework..
and i took 4 hrs to do it=)
so guaii rite...=)
but thats a gd way for time to pass!!
wahahass...
today is quite a fine day..
its like raining cats and dogs all these while..
*plong*plong*plong*
scary...

luckily aircon on..
so not so scary...hehezzz
ilove my DOGGIE blanket!!=)

byebye!!
[[EILEEN]]
i just love to be a child...
its so great=)

these were the pics of us and uncle judah when i was 3 in AMERICA!!!


2001,when i was 7...we went to brisbane australia=)

12th october 2002...my 8th birthday=)

2002...when i was 8...went to perth australia=)


uncle judah going back to america to visit his relative=)

thats all for today..

will post more pics soon=)

hahas...

byebye!!

[[EILEEN]]

i realli wonder..

if liking you was the correct choice...

but i wonder...

how long will it really last..?

默默的喜欢你，

是多么的辛苦，

但我重来没有后悔过。。

wooh
its 11.21pm..
and im not done yet!!
ahhh
gonna die soon..
zzz
[[EILEEN]]

today..
ish another like zzz day..??
one day ish like once again wasted...
stupid..
left class at 11.30..
and went to chong cheng high..
the school ish realli retro and unique..
it makes me feel that im not in singapore when i was walkin in the school...

anyway..
tml will go to amk police station for land division visit..
looking forward to it..=)
i feel like im droppin in my studies..
wad am i suppose to do..!!
ahhh....
must buck up..
no more using com anymore..
unless there ish realli a need to do so..yeah
i will try my best..
i dunwan to dissappoint myself..
hahas...
tats all bahs...

stupid monkey..
you lousy..
scissors,paper,stone and lose until like shit..
hahas..
get well soon...

[[♥EILEEN♥]]

HAPPY 15TH BIRTHDAY TO JASMINE KOH BI QIN!!

alright...
currently in school using the tablet..
as i have to do some stupid research again for my CME..
anyway..
today totalli sucks bahs..
dunno why everything seems so moodless..
not includin the time with my friends..
but still..
got this stupid feeling in me..
felt so weird..

felt so not like myself..
even when i saw him..
its like nothing...
no feeling at all..
as i just got no feeling at all..
dunno wads wrong bahs...
feel so stupid...
WTH!!!
feel like filling myself with alot alot alot of things...
so that i wont have that kind of stupid feeling anymore..
its realli veri irritating you noe..

tired hard to like get crazy..
but just dun have the correct mode..
zzz
wad the hell ish WRONG WITH ME!!!
stupid...
anyway..
this week would be realli filled up bahs..
will be super tired..
here's the thing...

[[TUESDAY]] NPCC...[[FULL-UNIFORM]]
[[WEDNESDAY]]NPCC trip [[SCHOOL UNIFORM]]
[[THURSDAY]]BEACH CLEANING UP...
[[FRIDAY]] BAD FRIDAY...

haiish..
seems that its not that pack after all...
zzz
haiish..
thats all bahs..
byebye..
[[EILEEN]]

having the urge to like give up on everythin...
LIFE REALLI SUCKS...
life was great were great when everyone gets together...
laugh around,have fun around...
but life realli sucks...
when everyone only care for themselves...
and quarrel around every single day...
getting angry with each other...
but never get the feeling of being sad....

i have the urge of just leaving this stupid world...
leavin it for the purpose of peace...
i dun understand wads the point of stayin..
as i dun want to feel upset over it...
why can friends be realli that nice..
but a place which im stayin in...
is so scary...
so cold...
it makes me feel that im not suppose to live here...

how i wish i got school everyday...
and doesn't have to go back home..
how i wish i have night classes everyday...
until late night..
so that i wont have to go through the horrible process everyday...

have i wish i was to have a realli nice day...
how i wish i had a realli nice home..
but i dun have one..
as everyone ish just caring for themselves..
but never spare a thought..
i might be the youngest...
but yet...
i have the most amount of emotions giving in...
i can just cry as my brother give me a small little hit...
he might not feel anythin...
but yet...
i felt realli sad..
realli hurt...
no one will ever know..
cos i am always joking around all these while...

smiling and having crazy moments in school..
during lesson, during cca....
was just a cover behind everythin...
but yet...
when its time to go home..
its all the same old things again...
no one cares..
and no one will ever noe...

seeing my friends getting so close..
to their siblings...
so close to their family..
they do quarrel...
but after that..
its one big family again...
but it doesn't seem so in my hse...
after quarrels...
things gets from bad to worse...

nowadays...
i dun talk to my brother...
he was one of the closest person at home...
but yet...
now when we see each other...
we would never talk...
i regretted growing up...
when i was young...
i would never have this type of thinking..
this type of feeling..
as i was still emotionless...
but now...
everythin changed....
i feel alot...
i care alot....
but i just cant expressed it out...
as i just cant show it out...

chinese got this saying...
兄妹没有隔夜愁。。。
但是那又是多么的真实呢。。？
为什么，误会总是越来越深。。
渐渐的，
爸爸不像爸爸，
妈妈不像妈妈，
哥哥不像哥哥，
姐姐不像姐姐，
妹妹也不再像妹妹。。
一个家。。。
再也不像一个家。。。

[[EILEEN]]

haiish...
np ish filled with alot of things..
studies had became more and more tough...
more and more responsibility being held on...
i feel so the tired bahs..
even if i want to study..
i just cant do it...
i dun understand why...

i totalli dont have that mood to study at home..
i also dont know why...
training nowadays had been great..
as we are NCO-t's now...
and we will be followin CI's around to learn from them...
i realli wonder,
if i could be a real NCO...
maybe yes..?
maybe not..?
i don't know..
but all i noe now ish that im always feeling cold like nobodies business..
while the others are realli warm..

dun understand why more and more headaches are happening again..
dun understand why am i getting sick more and more often..
that didn't happen in the previous time before..
feel so shity..
feel so irritated...
by all this crap happening to me...
why must i be the one..??
why cant i be the one that ish super healthy..??
i look normal.
but im not..
i wana be normal..
but i can't...
why do ppl have to look at me in different ways...
why ish that so...


sometimes i realli wonder..
why cant there be someone...
there...
when i need one...
found out that whenever i need a person around me..
no one would be there...
feel so the wad!!!!

[[EILEEN]]

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MR ANG BOON KIAT...
HAPPY BIRTHDY TO COMMA!!!

its another year yeah...
hahas..
hope he ish enjoying his day yeah=)
and hope my bao bei ish living happily too!!=)

anyway..
this morning went back school for extra lesson..
was feeling tired but when it started..
i felt energetic again le bahs..
den finish lesson tired again..
dunno wads wrong with me..
but hu cares..=)

thats all for today..
[[EILEEN]]

yesterday..
got this news that uncle judah passed away on sunday midnight in america...
when i heard that..
i totalli burst into tears bahs...

i wrote alot of compos using him..
as he realli affected my life realli alot..
he live with us for 16 years...
since my sister was borned for a few months...
and went back to america 4 years ago..
and now..
he passed away...

he had realli been a realli realli nice man..
a realli caring and nice man i have ever met..
he brings in laughters..
and calls EILEEN realli nicely..
he would always EILEEN~~ from his room..
and i would go over to get things done for him..

will upload some of the photos took with him next time round...
in memories of uncle judah...

[[EILEEN]]

currently in the com lab..
super tired..
cos my head realli pain..
feel so idiotic..
today control room no electricity..
duno why..
but realli tired..
and totalli no mood today..

thats all for now.
will post again tonight..
byebye..
[[EILEEN]]