wahahas...
back postin once again..
pics not ready yet..
cos im too lazy..
hahas..
actualli wanted to start studyin at 1.30pm..
but lastly decided to use com for a while before studyin luhs
im always so guaii okayy..
hahas...
err got chinese things to do..
but im just plain lazy okayy
i have to admit tat..
cos i just dun feel lyke studyin cos feeling rather unwell for the past few days..

yesterday din go for trainin hahas..
hope they would be enjoyin themselves!!
wahahas...
anyway..
i dun think i want to stay overnight for duty on the sec1 orientation camp bahs..
believe tat idiot got come my blog to see..
hahas..
and so i dun need to give anymore excuses cos i dun wan to say it in school..
there's reason behind it bahs..
and its a big one..
if you dunwan to camp to be moody den i better dun go bahs..
hahas..
later you say i emo again..
LOL
its not about wadever stuff luhs..
just tat i would try to help out bahs..
i dunwan to lyke give face there..
although i realli wanted to stay overnight..
but i noe i cant do it bahs..
hope you understand..
hahas..

tats all bahs.
byebye..
[[EILEEN]]

its lyke so called after new year to me le bahs..
cos no more celebrations lehs...
den went back school on wednesday
and SICKED...
lol...
coughin lyke non-stop luhs
den feeling rather unwell bahs..
and lots of stuff bahs...
haiish...
blahblahblah..
sometimes knowin too much things also not gd bahs..
hahas
and i had enough of blahblahblah things..
and so..
i start to blahblahblah about..
hahas..
maybe you guys might not understand..
but i understand can lehs..
cos you all cannot noe..
wahahas..
abit sot le..
hahas..
tats all bahs..
soon will post my new year pics up...
its just some clothes with me on it..
and my aunty's husky!!
wahahas
byebye
[[EILEEN]]

did some test

[[MORE ABOUT MYSELF]]

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education

You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:

You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.


[[PERSONALITY TEST]]

Kind and Gentle

Your kindness is your charm - you are also gentle and sweet. Everybody likes to be around people with your personality. Like a psychologist, people like to talk to you to discuss their problems because you are proper and discrete, as well as confident. You look mature and people respect you. People with this kind of character are few and far between.

back postin after a few days bahs..
studies and stuff..
hahas..
and today till tuesday..
i dun think i will be touchin any books anymore le bahs..
need some rest..
before i start all over again..

alright..
about today..
after the entire event i cried bahs...
due to me being touched,pissed, and also own emotional problems bahs..
when i was doin my duty,i was so afraid tat things will go wrong..
but when everythin was over..
i was overjoyed..
but things din go so well in control room..
i just dun understand why will communication go wrong luhs..
den gettin so much stupid attitude was another problem.

haiish..
anyway...
yesterday night..
sayin goodbye to you was after much thinkin bahs..
one fine day..
you will find out wad was it for...
i've got nothing else tat i could do..
and tats the last thing i have to resort to le bahs..
i dunno was it right or not..
but i dun wish to hurt anyone anymore..
even if it doesnt realli matters to you..
but to me..
its alot...
everythin has to be erased from the startin..
hope tat it could be done bahs..

all the things tat happened..
all the tears tat drop..
would soon be washed away..
hoping tat it would not happen..
but no choice it still happened..
alot of things dun come in straight..
but it comes in rounds and rounds..

i dunno bahs..
confused...
and i noe tat i cant believe on anyone anymore le bahs..
i gave up on hopin...
i gave up on wishes..
i gave up on rainbows..
i gave up on stars..
i gave up on clouds..
and..
soon..
givin up myself...

[[EILEEN]]

badges and name tag!!
another one
during chem lesson...experiment on distillation,the clear blue solvent
had a beaker of water and the substance being put on top..
water boilin so chio!!
the blue solvent and the boiling beaker
me and janice..hahas..she ish super nice...but as crazy as me..!
another experiment.the out come of the experiment super chio...but i forgot wad experiment was it..X.x


alright...
yesterday studied till 11pm den went to sleep..
din rest at all..
when i was on my bed...
all i got inside was bio and maths questions...
LOL...
manage to sleep well..
and felt realli tired went i was suppose to wake up at 6.10am this morning..
reached school realli so called late..
cos i was super slow this mornin..
wahahas

den made lesson..
was realli tired..
and felt realli sick..
cos eyes pain,headache...den coughin and sneezin once again.
but i still went for trainin after eatin panadol luhs..
so pathetic...
den went training..
was fun and enjoyable lyke always..
and we got to take rifle wahahas..
den we learn abit..
but super pain cos the hand keep kanna hit..
den now got blue black...zzz
den time to go home..
edsteve and me helped out to keep the rifle in no.
but i went off earlier.
cos my mum called..
den i went to bus stop..
den saw yiwei and sam..
sam scare me!!X.x
den yiwei pei wo bus home..
while sam runs home..
cos i think his late for somethin.??

lol
reached home..
ate..
bathed..
and once again..
i got a cut on my finger..
yesterday the exact same thing happened..
and it happened today..
stupid..
cos the shower head got problem luhs
so sharp.
i think by end of this week..
i can get all my fingers cut already..
lol..
lost of blood..
and need alot of white blood cells to fight the bacteria's hahas.
so bio siio me..
lol

alright...
tats all for today perhaps...
mood still unstable..
but i feel tat im just actin around in school..
i dunno why
i just cant let my feelings out..
hahas..
X.x
[[EILEEN]]

chemistry practical

the boilin chip boiling

burning but not clear!!!X.x

the sky on 15.01.09 when i was lyin on the mat in the quadrangle...

my full-u i noe not straight okayy!!

my rank for the day...i will miss you!!

my formation sign and my 3 badges!!so chio!!

total defence,sana and my big big NAME!!!i dunno why no eileen siia!!!

another side view of my 3 chio badges!!


tats all for pictures...

currently...

still not feeling realli well..

but im much better already...

and so...

yesterday reached home realli late..

den got realli pissed of by my sisters' msg...

i have to be realli straight now...

I HAD ENOUGH OF ALL THIS OKAYY..

THERE ISH NOTHIN BETWEEN ME AND BK ANYMORE..

SO STOP CRAPIN..

I NOE YOU DID READ MY POST..

AND IM SURE YOU DID NOT FAIL UR CHINESE..

I HAD ENOUGH..

I DUN CARE HU YOU ARE EVEN IF YOU ARE MY BLOOD-RELATED SISTER...

ONE MORE CRAP FROM YOU...

AS I SAID..

I WOULD GIVE YOU ONE TIGHT SLAP..

WHEN I WAS WITH HIM..

YOU CRAP..

AND NOW TAT I AM NOT WITH HIM..

YOU CRAP EVEN MORE..

SO DO YOU EVER FEEL TAT YOU ARE A GD SISTER...

YOU ARE JUST SOMEONE HU DOESNT CARE ABOUT PPL AROUND YOU..

SO JUST SHUT UR STUPID BIG MOUTH UP..

I HAD ENOUGH OF ALL THESE NONSENSE..

THIS WOULD BE THE LAST TIME IM SAYIN THIS...

I DUN CARE WHETHER I GET STRIKE BY LIGHTIN BECAUSE I SLAP MY SISTER..

I HAVE TO PROTECT MYSELF..

AND MY OWN FEELINGS..

AND YOU GOT NO RIGHT TO INTEFERE...

SO JUST GET OUT OF MY LIFE OKAYY!!!

YOU THINK YOU ARE REALLI GREAT TO MAKE A JOKE OUT OF ME..

DEN I TELL YOU...YOU R THE WORST PERSON ON EARTH..

YOU HURT UR OWN SISTER JUST LYKE THIS..

I RATHER I DIE EARLIER DEN I GET HURT FROM YOU...

YOU NEVER NOE TAT YOU ARE THE ONE HU ISH HURTIN ME THE MOST..

I NOE YOU CARES ABOUT ME..

BUT PLS SPARE A THOUGHT FOR ME..

IM REALLI SICKED AND TIRED OF EVERYTHIN FROM YOU..

HOW I WISH YOU WASNT AROUND TO INTEFERE...

EVERYONE GOT THEIR OWN PRIVACY...

AND THEIR OWN FEELINGS..

AND YOU GOT NO RIGHT TO HURT THEM...

JUST LYKE HOW I DUN CARE ABOUT UR STUFF..

COS IT DOESNT CONCERNS ME..

AND I NOE I DUN LYKE TO HURT PPL...

YOU ARE SO EVIL...

REALLI REALLI SO EVIL..

SO STOP ALL THESE NONSENSE...

I JUST WAN TO HAVE A NICE SISTER...

NOT A SISTER TAT WOULD HURT ME TAT MUCH..

I WAN SOMEONE HU CARES..

BUT NOT SOMEONE HU BULLIES...

YOU ARE A BIG BIG BULLIE...

I DUN GET UPSET OVER HIM..

BUT NOW...

I UPSET OVER HOW YOU TREATED ME..

[[EILEEN]]

我以为我放下了那段漫长的恋情。。。
在这六个月里，我学会了什么叫做坚强。。
今天是一月十六日。。也是我们的一年半的感情。。
事情难以在意料之外。。。
而很多事是难以控制的。。。
还记得在我门一年的前夕，你离开了我。。。
那天是七月十五日。。
那天真要开始下雨。。。
而我们俩就坐在三楼。。。
我当时很混乱。。。
我不知道会发生什么事。。。
而我也不想知道。。
当你决定要离开我只侯。。。
我忍住了泪水。。。
还开开心心的陪你下楼。。。
是下这雨，而刚好干哥哥在那里。。。
他陪我走去巴士站。。。
我哭了。。。
但没人看到。。。
但我没哭很久。。。

事情过去了那么久。。
而我还深深的记住当时的景。。。
而也不会忘记当我发现到所有的谎言的那一天。。。
那天是生命中最痛苦的一天。。。
也是悲剧的开始。。
2009年，我还以为我完完全全的忘记你了。。。
而也下定决心要好好努力的读书。。。
但今天。。
不知道为什么。。。
好多事情跑回我的脑海里。。。
我知道我不再爱你。。。
但我知道我还忘不了我们的美好的回忆。。。
我们分分合合。。。吵吵闹闹。。
多是我们回忆的一部分。。。
我深爱过你，所以得放开你。。。
我不能那么自私。。
为了自己。。。
而把你留在我的身边。。。
我们曾经是朋友，然后是恋人，最后成为了最熟悉的朋友和陌生人。。。
[[周佩雯 启]]

wooh...
tired..
sicked..
hahas
today was sec 1 cca orientation..
den everythin was quite well..
but just tat its super tiring..
actuali i was in charge of flyers..
which i doesnt have to talk..
but lastly cannot cos of blahblah reason
so i went to help simone with boothe..
and so i helped her with explainin with all the things at the boothe..
hahas
was realli tired..
and im lyke totalli scared to say anythin wrong..
and the worst thing ish tat im lyke havin a sore throat and im still lyke shoutin..
but its okay luhs..
lastly released and went playin frisby with seri,hidayah,kee chun and kai ming...
hahas..
den the kee chun keep saboin me..
hahas..
but i did enjoy myself there yeah..
hahas
after tat went home..
den eat..
den bath veri long.
wash dishes and wash tortise..
den lastly use com..

i feel lyke my eyes are closing man..
but i dun feel lyke sleepin at all...
blahblahblah and so on...
im sicked..
wahahas...
i've been going home later and later man!!
die!!
but i love it..
cos no one's at home..
so lonely so sad!!
hahas
byebye!!

anyway i love NPCC SEC 3 SQUAD!!!

[[EILEEN]

alright..
alot of things out today...
includin the o'lvl results...
shouldn't say much about it...
but i believe tat i also cant say about it too..
X.x

anyway lesson today..
was tiring...
but i lyke bio lessons..
although its tiring..
and got alot of things to memorise..
but i understand wad miss kok ish tokin about..
tats the best..
as for english..
although teacher super zzz..
but i enjoyed her lesson today..
cos i was lyke super duper funnie!!
cos we had to mark our peer composition..
and everyone was lyke laughin there..
as for history...
err can say i was super tired...

hahas..
now i still haven do my hw yet...
still got a-maths and chinese ting xie to learn..
den english can do tml...=)
but thought of it..
tml got trainin den i goin chinatown at night..
wahahas..
going shoppin for FLOWERS!!
hahas
anyway...
tat should be all for today..
byebye
[[EILEEN]]

wooh..
back postin today again..
cos im only gonna study at 2pm..
hahas
anyway...
i now everywhere pain..
lol..
even bone also pain..
hahas...
wadever...
wahahas...
im kind of lame luhs...
cos im hyper!!
LOL!!!

anyway...
im realli realli bored for now..
hahas
listening to songs now..
den gonna do my maths tuition homework..
followed by finishin my bio homework..
den tonight will do my chemistry cos need use com des
tml..
will have to do my school maths homework
english compo..
go for tuition..
den monday will do my cme and mt cos got ting xie on tuesday!!!

feel tat im realli hardworkin man..
hahas...
feel much better during weekends siia..
relax abit..
lol...
anyway will end here now!!
byebye..
[[EILEEN]]

MATHS MAKES ME FAINT MAN!!!

ahhh!!!
so stressed out man..
everyday got maths..
got alot of homework,got alot of stuff in school..
got cca...got mes matters..
make me super duper tired...
and realli feel lyke droppin..??
hahas..
realli felt realli realli tired..
i have to say tat...
pass few days had been spendin most of my time on my maths..
i can cope..
but just tat i feel realli realli tired doin it..
2 maths are so scary..
can have 4 periods of maths everyday!!
ahhh..
lol
super stressed...but yet felt super happy..
cos i wont have to think so much about personal stuff...
anyway...
this week ish realli tiring..
hope tat the next few weeks would be better..

alright...
first time in my life..
i did not touch till my tuition homework when i got tuition on sunday..
hahas..
first time siia..
i always do it before hand..
this shows im a realli GUAII KIA alright...
hahas
den got realli alot of things to do..
but i dunwan to study today..
cos i realli realli TOO TIRED for everythin!!

next..
today's training..
PT KIT THE ENTIRE DAY!!!
so happy..
cos dun need prepare full u=)
did campcraft...which ish somehow lyke chicken feet...
den pt..
hahas..
i enjoyed myself the most during pt de luhs..
cos i realli love runnin mahs..
den holiday too busy to run..
and pe only run a little..
so not fun enough..
although its realli tough for pt..
but when jeremy asked us to run 10 rounds around parade square..
i was lyke..okayy..
den started running...
was feelin realli out of breathe when runnin..
but i manage to run all the way without stoppin...
but only did 7 rounds..
cos he asked us to stop..

runnin make me feel realli gd bahs..
cos i can forget every single thing and feel blank at times..
but im just too tired and lazy to go runnin!!!
after pt..
did a few times of march pass...
did alot of errors..
but it was realli realli FUNNIE!!!
and all of us did enjoy ourselves..
the best was marchin pass when miss lee was around..
tat was the only time we din do anythin wrong..??
hahas...
den went home..
feelin realli tired...

personal stuff now...
erm lets see...
today saw somethin which make me feel so sweet..???
hahas...
was a scene tat was realli nice bahs...
how i wish i was involve but i noe tat could never happen..
den since i have to study now..
why should i think so much and care so much about such things..
sometimes ppl say i say but cannot realli do it out..
its realli true..??
cos im someone hu ish lyke veri the alot of feeling one...
so take things realli hard...
but wad can i do.??
im just tryin to prove to myself tat i can live happily even if there wasnt anyone around me..
and provin to myself tat im strong...
even now there's lyke no more feelings lehs...
but sometimes...
things dun realli go so well..
cos whenever so such sweet scene infront..
alot of things would come back..
tats the reason bahs...

anyway..
enough of today..
byebye...
[[EILEEN]]

back postin...
after lyke 2 days..??
lol
wont be usin the com tml..
cos got tuition until 9...
so wont use l0rx..
this two days was tirin!!
cos did alot of things..
studied..
and had trainin today..
today's trainin was realli FUN!!
hahas..although its tiring..
but its lyke even if we were havin trainin..
we did enjoy ourselves..
not so stress out..
tats how i kinda feel..
lol...
to me..
if such trainin happens in all the trainin..
i would be SOOOO happy siia..
hahas
its lyke kind of realli nice..
wahahas..

anyway...
kind of lyke test comin here and there just on the 3rd day of school..
it's tough..
but life seems much happier with my time being occupied..
and its filled with laughters..
hahas..
i like the feeling..
although after reachin home will feel realli tired..
but its realli worth it bahs..


im tired of livin in life of tears..
and life of sadness..
why not smile happily and let things just carry on..
nothin could be known until the day it should be..
and life still have to carry on..
i dunwan to be trap in such lousy life..
i want my life to be filled with lots and lots of things..
and doesnt want to be tied up anymore!!
wahahas.
so im gettin more and more clear of wad i wan..
although im CHILDISH alright..
but im livin happily..
tats wad life are for rite..?
hahas
nitex nitex everyone!!!
[[EILEEN]]

alright...i found a skin tat make me happy le bahs..
hahas..
maybe might not use long.
but this will be the current skin...
hahas...
its nice..
and simple..
wahahas..
tats all...
bye
[[EILEEN]]

ahhhh!!!
has been findin my new blogskin...
but din manage to find the one which fit my mood.
hahas..
wanted somethin realli elegant...
but couldn't find it..
so i decided to give up till the next time.
hahas..
will be goin tution at 4pm!!!
ahhh..
dun feel lyke goin...
wahahass!!!!

to you...
im used to being alone...hope you know wad i mean...

back from work..
and felt realli tired..
hahas...
being tired but yet still wanna use com...
cos got things to do.
den just got no mood to do other things..
so came to use com...
and do finish the updatin things..
so i could print it out le bahs..
hahas....
i dunno wad to say...
[[EILEEN]]

I WANNA SHOUT OUT LOUD!!!

school was realli tiring today..
mr yeo ish my form teacher..
ish realli nice hahas..
den bio would be miss kok
english ms liza
a&e maths would be mr yeo
ss and history would be mrs tan
pe would be mdm any wong
chemistry would be miss lim

hahas..
tat should be all..
today went to school..
couldn't find control room key..
was lyke ahhhh!!
den after tat found it,
sec one came.
and we were lyke there till the were dismissed back to the class..
had recess with them at 0930...
den went back hall for the new VP tokin to the sec one's...
while joshua,alex and me was lyke somehow havin a small meetin..
den went to lyke interview all of them..
hahas..
after tat,
we went back to class..
and i got to noe all my teacher's as in hu are they..
and i was lyke so happy tat the class was quite..
smilex..
ilove it man..
my class got 25 girls and 15 guys.
which make a class of 40..
after school...
went to fall-in..
and mr peh tok to us and inform us about the 2 days of trainin per week.
den i was lyke expected..
lol..
but din expect us to take over the cca so fast...
after speech day..
den we had to take over already..
ahhh was lyke ahhH!!
hahas..
den after tat went to G.O
to find mr sim to get back my thumbdrive..
waited for a long long time..
den jeremy called me and ask me go np room..
so i went...
and have to inform ppl about the time and so on..
and update the class details..
den alex called me to go G.O
after tat went back to control room..
den need to test parade square mick..
so went to test..
den was in G.O for a realli long time..
cos just nice when i was about to leave..
i met 2 china ppl hu wants to admit to the school..
den the two PRETTIES dunno chinese..
and so i helped along..
hahas...
after tat was lyke there..
helpin them to fill their particulars..
and so on..
den went back control room to get my bag..
but was so shock tat control room door spoil and so its not lock!!..
den called alex den he tell me he downstairs lehs...
so i went down and take my bag and control key for him..
and i went to find mr sim once again..
so mr sim went up with me to see the door..
and found out its so called spoiled...
managed to lock the door..
den mr sim say will change the door...
hahas..
den np sec 4 meetin over..
so went home with see jing hong and jialing..

personal matters..
dunno why i just feel lyke realli realli screamin out and let all my tears just flow out..
den i wouldn't have to lyke keep it in my heart again..hahas...is lyke i dunno bahs..
i just felt realli realli not realli upset..but guess i cant control my own feelings well too..
i believe tats the reason why i felt so tense up bahs...im happily in school..
but yet when i come home..i felt so hopeless...tried to relax myself or somethin lyke tat..
but i just cant do it...JUST WANNA SCREAM OUT LOUD MAN!!!can someone help me..??
anyway..im startin to lyke M.E.S more and more...i got much happier inside...
hahas..somehow...to me M.E.S ish lyke only got me,joshua,ting fang and alex..
we are always lyke together when there ish things and we are the often event ppl..
i realli enjoy myself with them...and maybe they are the ones which brought my life up once again...i realli feel comfortable with them..and even i eat i get to laugh along...and dun feel weird at all...den there's always lyke jokes all around...where everyone sit and laugh about...i love tat feeling...its lyke its where real friends were made..?i dunno how they felt..but i love the feeling!!!


and so..
tats the end for today..
byebye...
[[EILEEN]]

WELCOME 2009!!!

wahahazz..
its 2009 le worx..hahas..
wads ur new year wish..??
mine i alreadi made lehs..
and i told meijin jie lehs..
wahahass!!!
hahas..
yesterday night when waitin my sis come home tat time..
gave a call to mj jie..
hahas..
luckily she still awake siia..
hahas..
den tok to her for awhile luhs..
hahas...
realli nice to have her this jie..
always so gd de lehs...
hahas...
tats all for today..
not postin for long!!
wahahasss
byebye!!!
[[EILEEN]]