我要学会坚强，我不想再当一个不开心的小女孩。
是时候该长大了，我因该振作起来，不要再当一个小傻瓜，
默默的等待，没有结局的故事。。。
我应该振作！！不应该在哭泣，因为我是勇敢的小女孩。

心情好低落，好低落，但我还是要开开心心的面对着大家，
不要让任何人因为我担心，因为我难过。
但我心情是多么的沉重，多么的辛苦，
好像痛痛快快的好好地哭出来，把一切的一切干干净净的忘掉。
我说又是美好的回忆不代表是一件好事，
因为，当美好的回忆只能是回忆时，那感觉是多么的伤心，
多么的难受，觉得我好像快死掉了。
真的好辛苦，好辛苦。
如果我能许一个愿的话，
我希望我们还是好朋友，也希望我没有喜欢上你。
这样一来，我就不会渐渐的依赖着你。
你告诉我，我到底应该怎么做才是对的呢？？

[[周佩雯 启]]

WOOH~~~

exam was like..
okayy today..
but i feel that i anyhow write for my papers..
X.x
hahas..
i dunno why...
but sittin by the door ish really great..
cos its like super windy today..
but my paper keep flyin around..>.<
and i got scared by the door by alot of times today..X.x

muahahazz..
anyway..
next week would be the official week for exams!!
wooh..scared..
im muggin hard..
but im feeling really tired.
but i still have to study!!
argh..how i wish i dun need to study also can score well siia!
hahas

tats all for today~
byebye!
[[EILEEN]]
iloveloveloveyou...
its getting deeper and deeper..

ENGLISH & MT PAPER1 TML~

wooh..
tml will be the startin of the first paper!!~.~
but after my exam,still got 2 hrs of extra lesson,
den will start studyin again!!
muahahazz!
im a gd girl=)
lalalas...
anyway..
i feel veri veri veri veri tired okay!
hahas!!!
go i think im gonna sleep early tonight!~.~
i hope sooo...
hahas..
tat's all for today bahs..
byebye!
jiayous chewpeiwen~

[[EILEEN]]
ilovedumbbaby..X.x

ITS ALL ABOUT YOU~ITS ALL ABOUT YOU BABY~

i dunno why...
i randomin have this song in my mind..
HAHAS~
currently..i feel really unwell..
i dunno why...
feeling rather sick??
wadever luhs...
anyway...
went to study at bishan library...
and studied till 5 plus...
den went home..
den eat my dinner...dunno why..i just ate abit..
and stop eatin...what i read in the morning kept poppin out in my mind..
i dunno why..i hate that feeling..i really hate it!
totally no mood to eat at all..and so i just ate a little..
the words just keep poppin out of my mind..
ARGH!
its really gettin on my nerves..
i think i tonight would get to sleep that well bahs..
tats all bahs..
[[EILEEN]]

14 moreee DAYS!!>.<

wooh...
i have been sleepin really late on fridays and saturdays!!
>.<>.<
gonna study soon...
today shall do err chemistry and my a-maths paper perhaps!
tat's all..
sayonarah=)
[[EILEEN]]

this feeling really sucks!!!!
its really sucks sucks sucks!!!i hate it!!i really hate it..
IM TRYIN REALLY HARD TO DECIDE!!!
all i think about ish you you and more you!!
what the hell am i suppose to do..
you always make me laugh like crazy...
always make me go lalala...
haiish..but will you ever understand?
its all about lies,lies and more more more lies!
im lying to myself..i deceive myself..
just to tell myself that i dun like you...
i dun like you..and i dun like you..
WTH!!!this feeling ish killing me...

wooh!
3 more papers and i would have completed my entire set of maths exam papers!!
wooohoo!!muahahazzz..
im kind of proud of myself
for being so hardworkin..
eat finish lehs den go study!
oh yeahh!
im just being random here to post again and again!
hahas!!
3rd post of the day..
omg..
wads wrong with me!!

anyway..
im decidin whether i should go for the HK NPCC trip..
i want to go..but im also dunwan to go..
haiish..
i dunno..
shalll let my mum decide..
X.x
tat's all..
bye!
[[EILEEN]]

ARGH!im late for studyin!!
X.x
cos im chattin on msn!!
ARGH!!dumb dumb me!!
aiyooh!!
tonight i will have to study super hard..
haiish..
[[EILEEN]]

IM FALLING IN LOVE WITH STUDYIN AGAIN!~.~

oh yeah...
i studied!!
although din study much also,but i've got the mood to study once again..
gonna back to study at 4.30pm=)
today i woke up super late..
around 12 noon den i woke up, as i slept at around 2am yesterday?
LOL!!
was watchin veri nice variety show on KBS..the korean channel.
den went to my bed,listen music while msgin,to prevent myself from falling asleep while waiting..
and soo, i slept super late..
and woke up super late too!
later gonna try to complete another set of maths paper, den finish up my notes for my biology
last topic..before i move on to other subjects=)
biology ish the fastest subjects already...

tml..
gonna start studyin my chemistry and doing my TYS...
den will do my notes for my SS!
and it would be my day for tml!
100% into study mood!
no more things would block it!
muahahazz

from monday onwards..
i will be studyin like crazy le bahs..
but i dun think i will study at home??
hahas..will stay in school and study!
oh yeah!
i wanna score 4 A's!!!
so i can get my DREAM CAMERA!!!
jiayous chewpeiweneileen!!
and i hope i have no more C's!!!
i think i can do it des!!!
i wanna get into 4B'2010!!
hahas!!
im super afraid about my humanities!!
my one and only C!!!
but i wanna go JC!
so must at least get a B4 or B3...
den i wont be drag down!
study HARD!

[[EILEEN]]

16 MORE DAYS,TO SWEET FIFTEEN!but yet,i have to go through exams first!

trust me...
if you was to ask her,
the answer would be a yes...

today's motivational enrichment was GREAT alright?
i dunno why..
i just feel totally comfortable going for the enrichment and i look forward for more..
but today is a horrible day..
i dunno why..my entire stomach ish soooo pain..
includin the last bone of my rib cage...
i DUNNO WHAT'S WRONG OKAY!
den now still pain..
haiish..
im gettin well soon!>.<
no longer that sick as the previous days before=)
thats a gd thing...oh yeah!

haiish...
when can this feeling stop...
im feeling really blur now...
i dun understand you at all!NOT AT ALL!
things had been going too well..
till im really scared...
what am i suppose to do?
but yet,i know i can't let go...
i love the days with you...
yet i got this feeling that it wont last...
this feeling is killing me!!
why cant everythin be made clear?

i dunno bahs..
im gonna study really hard from tml onwards...
jiayous miss peiwen=)

[[EILEEN]]
im smiling to you,but yet behind the screen,im crying silently..
without you knowin,that im feeling really scared...

What is real leadership??
i really wonder bahs...what exactly ish wrong...
i feel so stressed up by so many things!!
i dunno what the stupid hell ish going wrong with me..
wonder...if it was the right choice,to accept the offer of being the Head...
i really wonder bahs...i feel that i DON'T FIT TO BE ONE..
im just plainly useless...someone who just know how to cry when i face problems..
just small little problems,would change my mood completely..
when i was talkin to them today, i felt totally like shit...
I DON'T FIT TO STAND IN FRONT AND TALK!
I REALLY DON'T FIT!
seriously..i just feel totally USELESS...
what exactly did i do wrong..
i really wonder bahs..
all i want ish to do the best out of everythin..
but yet...all i get was people screamin at me..
when i just wanted to get everyone's attention,
so that it wont drag anymore..
I FEEL TOTALLY UPSET!!!
IM JUST PLAINLY RETARDED,
TO CRY BECAUSE OF SMALL LITTLE THINGS!
I JUST DON'T FIT TO LEAD...

haiish..
it's like the first time i feel so upset over cca stuff bahs...
the feeling just sucks...
i hate it..
i really hate it...
no matter what i do,
people would always be unhappy..
i try my best to make the best out of everythin,
but i just can't!I CAN'T!I CAN'T!!!
whenever i talk about this...
i just have the urge to cry out...
so that everythin would be thrown out..
i thought i became stronger...
but actually i din..
im still,just the girl,who only knows how to cry Cry and CRY!

Mr Peh always tell me this:
Child,if you are upset or stress up.Do come and approach me.And tell me..
The unit needs you...
so stay strong!

whenever i see this..i would always tell myself to buck up!
and dun give up so easily...
i always tell myself to endure..endure and endure!
but i dunno why..
recently i've been really weak...
feel that i've already used up all my energy...
things seems to get from bad to worst...

i dunno bahs...
JIAYOUS CHEWPEIWENEILEEN...
although im not confident,
but i know,i still have to be strong..
17 more days..and i would be officially 15..
im gonna be a big girl from then...

[[EILEEN]]
the decision is up to you...
take care..please don't get injured again..will you?

ARGH!!!HISTORY AND BIOLOGY TEST TML!!>.<

wooh..
im really super duper duper duper tired okay!!!
went to Ngee Ann Poly..
den reached home at around 6.53pm..
so i did not go for tuition,
and started studyin at around 7.45pm..
until now..
but i just managed to finish my BIO NOTES!

and the time now ish 10.25pm..
argh!!
still need to read through my history notes..
and polish my boots!
maybe tml go school den polish boots lehs.
i dunno..
hope i got the time to do all these stuff..
im gonna crazy man!!
its like the first time..
i did everythin like sooo LAST MINUTE luhs!!
what's wrong with me siia!!

haiish..
tat's all bahs..
not gonna study anymore..
cos i think i will go really CRAZY if i carry on studyin!
muahahazz!!
that's all bahs..
sayonarah ):

[[EILEEN]]
haiish..
always get injured!
dunno what's wrong with you luhs!
takecaiire of yourself you dumbass!>.<

ARGH!EXAMS ROUND THE CORNER!!~.~

woohoo...
im like sooo the sick now??
but feeling alittle better le bahs...
hope that my nose wont block anymore..
the feeling ish like sooo the stupid okay!hahas!!
anyway..
during recess today..
i say a RAT!
den i scream a little!
muahahazz..
but its cute okay!
muahahazz..
tats all bahs..
studyin for my test tml!
sayonarah=)

[[EILEEN]]
thank you x3x3

我生病了，
但又有多少人会发现到呢？
你们天天面对着我，但为什么没有一个人会发现我感到不舒服呢？
失望是一点，但伤心，是另外一点。。。

haiish...
3 days of holiday..
ish now over...
tml will have to go school and study again..
somehow, i look forward bahs...
as im sick and tired of stayin at home,
where no one cares...
hahas!

haiish...
once again..
i fall ill again..
but no one notice about it at home bahs..
my throat ish like super duper the pain,
but yet no one found out yet..
im like havin a so the obvious de block nose,
but no one found out too!
yet all i get was scoldin scoldin and more SCOLDIN!
muahahazz!!
hope i will get well soon bahs...
thanks for the message too=)

anyway..
i finish writing my english de compo le bahs..
im a gd girl okay..
i did my english homework..
for like the second time!
hahas!>.<
now im like slackin for awhile..
den will try and go and study again bahs..
i just cant concentrate at home..
what am i suppose to do siia!ARGH!!

tat's the end for now bahs..
i dunno what to say bahs..
[[EILEEN]]

i dunno if you are really that dumb,
or you are just acting dumb bahs...
thanks for your message today...
i dunno what to say to you...
i dunno why...
what am i suppose to do?
can you please tell me?? ♥
说我不想你是假的，
说我不在传你简讯也是假的。
你觉得我会舍得不理你，
不跟你说话吗？

你可以，以后不要再对我那么好了吗？我快被你的好逼疯了！

我不知道我到底在想什么，
可以因为不理我，感到伤心。
但又可以因为你对我的好，感到担心，感到不自在。
可能我真的害怕了吧，我不敢再被伤害，
因为我真的不想再次的为一个人而掉泪。
只希望一切都能顺顺利利吧。

currently,im havin a running nose and my throat ish super duper pain..
this morning, i woke up and my throat was like so the pain..
i cough abit den got alittle bit of blood!den i was like OMG!
i think my throat bleed??
arghh...
think im really falling sick soooon le bahs..
i wanna go cycling tml!
i dunwan to fall sick...
i dun understand bahs...
why are other's always so healthy,
but yet im the one who ish always falling sick all the time,
always the one who ish like the super cold one!
what the hell ish wrong siia!
WHY ISH IT LIKE SO UNFAIR!
haiish...


i just sneezed!
hahas...
now block nose lehs..
good luck man!chewpeiweneileen..!>.<
if i doesnt get well by tonight,
im seriously falling sick..
omg..
haiish...
i dunno bahs..
i dunwan to fall sick again..
i hate that feeling!
tat's all bahs..
[[EILEEN]]

i wish that everything was just a dream,
i wish that nothing has happen before...
i wish that they were still the same,
i wish that they had never changed

alright!
i look totally RETARDED!
muahahazz!



today was really argh alright...
i dunno bahs...
i just feel that they are no longer the same as previous anymore
they are no longer the people i know,
they are no longer as good as before..
why must this happen...


i really wonder..
im just tryin to make things really well between all of us..
but yet i've been upset by them, felt really disappointed by their actions every single week..
if they were in my situation, i believe they would feel this way too!
why cant they just spare just a little thought for me..
every week, the same story would happen again...
and i dunno how many times i have to shed my tears because of such small little things...
im starting to feel the stress,towards my studies,towards my cca..


i dunno why...
i just felt that everythin have changed bahs..
the kind of attitude towards everythin has changed...
but yet..I STILL LOVE GOING FOR NP...
i dunno why bahs..
NP has given me alot of strength to make me be a much stronger person...
i no longer tear so easily..
but now,


the thing that would make me shed my tears ish my beloved squadmates...
i dunnno how am i suppose to communicate with them anymore..
i feel really really hard, no longer as before...
all these stupid things make me feel like GIVING UP!
but I STILL LOVE THEM ALOT
they are just like my second family..
they make me laugh, they make me smile...
i dunno bahs..


tats all for today..
byebye
[[EILEEN]

TIRING DAY ~

wooh...
i feel that i have never been so fierce before..
until today??
i dunno...
just feel that i've not scolded ppl like this before..
even though i din really shout or wad...
but i feel that the anger was there bahs..

anyway...
study study study!
hahas!!!
i dunno wad to say..
but there's training again tml..
hahas..
but it wouldnt be a too tough one afterall..
as its promotion test for the sec 1 and 2
and we will be just doin some drills..
hahas
ttats all for today bahs..
[[EILEEN]]
how i wish,the reply was a yes...but it would never happen..

woohoo...
hahas..
here comes in another picture again=)
got edwin,me and meng meng=)
i veri dumb picture but actually i love it luhs
cos both of them are veri veri funnie ppl
muahahazzz

anyway...
today,i reached at at around 3.30?
so early luhs..
it has been really long since i last went home sooo early le bahs...
sometimes,i really feel so tight up bahs..
studyin,stress about alot alot alot of stuff..
emotional upset at times,
feel really shity...
this kind of feeling seems like comin to me more and more often..
sadness comes in too, but now im usin studies to cover it up..
i just want to use my time to the fullest,
so that i wont have anytime to think about stupid stuff,
shed my precious tears for wadever the reason ish...

我每次都说，要开开心心的过日子，
但我每次说得到，
但是有做不到。
我好想快快地把你忘了，
但我觉得我很像真的不能忘记你，
我试着不和你沟通，
我试着不发简讯给你，
但我每次都半途而废。。。
没有成功过。

i shall stop posting now...
of to sleep for awhile...
feel that im falling sick soon..
byebye
[[EILEEN]]

ITS JUST A RANDOM POST!
a dumbass whom i know through maybe NPCC,maybe MES....
im not sure with that too...
but eventually,
to me,he became a super gd friend of mine,
who makes me laugh like crazy,
tease me when we saw the guy i like,
cheer me up whenever im sad,
flick my fingers till its super red and super pain...
entertain me when im bored,
do dumb things to make me laugh,
give me the stupid look and later start laughin...
studied with me,
played with me,
gave me alot of stupid and dumb nicknames,
laugh at my stupid mistakes that i always make,
always ask me what's so funny,
lastly,
always meow~ing at me...
and shoooo me off when im about to alight at my bus-stop...

we were once complete strangers,
slowly,we became friends,
den he lastly became my good friend aka playmate...
if i was to think back,
those memories were like super duper wonderful!
but how much of those memories,would happen again?
maybe soon enough,
all those would just become sweet little pieces of the past...
sooooooonnn...
i would have to sit at the bus-stop alone,
take 53 alone...
hahas...
rather sadd...>.<

it should be maybe the 3rd time im posting about this dumb dumb...
but every single time i post about him,
the feeling was different...
first was to thank you for being there to cheer me up,
second was tryin to shooo you off away from me..i teared that time...
and now,its a thank you and a goodbye post to you...

still remebered the second post which i posted about you,
i really wanted to shooooo you off bahs..
not wanting to get so close to you...
but lastly, you din get the link...
so we stil carried on to me friends...
and became even better friends...

you always laugh at me being childish..
always say im random,
always say im dumb,
always say im crazy,
always say im wrong,
always say im horny..

but im not...
im just being myself=)
*not the horny part!
im being myself when you are there,
i dun have to hide my feelings,
i dun have to like act till im really happy in front of you...
i can just vent my sadness or anger on you.
but you will always not be angry de lo
always so nice to me...
but yet..you will see me not appriciating you at times...

but actually,
i really got alot alot alot of things to say luhs....
but most importantly,
i would like to say a BIG THANK YOU to you..
joshua see jing hong...
for making this 1year and around 6 months? so interesting for me..
i've never regretted knowin you...
i've never regretted joinin M.E.S...
you really taught me alot...


THANK YOU FOR BEING SUCH A WONDERFUL FRIEND(:
gd luck for your upcoming o'lvls,
take care of yourself...
remember to dun watch soccer until super duper late!
hahas!
its bad bad bad for health!
cos you will become rudolph the following day hahas!
try not to let me say the 8 words to you anymore=)

x3x3
[[EILEEN]]

IM TIRED!
SHALL UPDATE TML!
need chiong my chinese lehs
argh!!!
its killing mE!

[[EILEEN]]

muahahazzz...
some pics of the SEC 4's pop.
was feeling really really really really bored today okay!
so go and do soooo random de editing..
cos i really got nothin to do!argh!!

the last pic with amirul and joshua has a meaning behind it de luhs..
it all started at long john silvers i still remember veri veri clearly..
hahas...
and its not something correct,so i shall not say anymore..
hahas..>.<

there's alot of pretty memories afterall,
with NPCC,my squadmates,and my beloved seniors..
think about it,
half a year more,i will POP already..
hahas..
we work hard for these 3 years,and get 6 months of success!
hahas!!
but i feel that its worth it bahs..
im a super duper good experience afterall...

EOY ish coming..
followed by my birthday..
and O'LVL CHINESE HERE I COME!

[[EILEEN]]

nice rite!
hahas edited yesterday night..
cos i just downloaded photo scape..
thank you weiling! x3x3
and soooo..
i slept really late yesterday...
slept at around 2am??
hahas..X.x veri dumb...
cos i couldnt sleep..
den this morning woke up at 10.53...
was like still veri tired...
den my eyes veri pain,i also dunno why..
hahas..
but now okay le luhs...
muahahahazzz!!
tats all for now!
sayonarah~
[[EILEEN]]

EXACTLY 1 more month to my sweet fifteen=)finally!

我不知道，我应该说你傻，还是说你笨呢？
可能你不是那个傻的，但我是，
虽然我们俩还是很好的朋友，
但有没有想过，
我们是不是在逃避一切的一切呢？
可能你没有，但我发现到，
我开始逃避，
因为，我不想有一天，
被伤害。。。

second post of the day...
had a nice little sleep in the evening..
woke up as my stomach was grumbling..
muahahazz...
currently...
im veri veri veri blur bahs.
i also dunno why ):..
hahas...
[[EILEEN]]

randomly missing YOU♥

hahhass...
im missing alot of people,
those people readin my post,
im missing you too!
muahahazz!!

today woke up at around 7.30 like tat
den get prepared to meet peoples at kovan taxi stand to go HTA
sooo..
i was the latest...X.x
i reach that 2 mins before 10 but yet..
im still the last...
so paiseh..X.x argh!!

and so,
we got on the taxi and reached HTA at around 10.30??
changed to full-u and started waiting and so on..
was rather bored until we went in for the test..
yaya...
finish lehs..
den go eat lunch with edwin...
sooo dumb..
actually got edsteve des,but lastly he has to go home...
so yahhh...
reached home after around 1 hr of MRT ride..
argh..
super tired..
and now..
im at home..
hahas...
.super tired,but i dun feel like sleeping..

tonight gonna stay at home..
and rot..
hahas..
but its okay=)
i've got my laptop to accompany me=)
tat's all..
tatta=)
[[EILEEN]]

You belong with me-Taylor Swift.

You’re on the
phone with your girlfriend, shes upset
Shes going off about something
that you said
Cause she doesn’t get your humor like I do

I’m in my room, it’s a typical Tuesday night
I’m listening to the kind of music she doesn’t like
And she’ll never know your story like I do

But she wears short skirts, I wear T-shirts
She’s cheer captain and I’m on the bleachers
Dreaming about the day when you wake up
And find what you’re looking for has been here the whole time
If you could see that I’m the one who understands you
Been here all along so why
can’t you see
You belong with me, you belong with me

Walkin’ the streets with you and your worn-out jeans
I can’t help thinking
this is how it ought to be
Laughing on a park bench, thinking to myself
Hey isn’t this easy
And you’ve got a smile that could light up this whole town
I haven’t seen it in a while since she brought you down
You say you’re fine,
I know you better then that
Hey whatcha doing with a girl like that
She wears high heels, I wear sneakers
Shes cheer captain and I’m on the bleachers
Dreaming about the day when you wake up and find
That what you’re looking for has been here the whole time

If you could see that
I’m the one who understands you
Been here all along so why can’t you see
You belong with me
Standing by and waiting at your back door
All this time how could you not know baby
You belong with me, you belong with me

Oh, I remember you drivin’ to my house in the middle of the night
I’m the one who makes you laugh, when you know you’re ’bout to cry
And I know your favorite songs and you tell me ’bout your dreams
Think I know where you belong, think I know it’s with me
Can’t you see that I’m the one who understands you
Been here all along, so why can’t you see
You belong with me

Standing by and waiting at your back door
All this time how could you not know Baby
you belong with me, you belong with me
You belong with me
Have you ever thought just maybe,you belong with me

You belong with me.

i dunno why..im sooo totally into this song..hahas=)
[[EILEEN]]

是不是每个人都是要等到失去了，
才学会要怎么珍惜的呢？
我真的不了解，为什么人要那么傻呢？
为什么要到我们失去的时候，才后悔，才珍惜。
你成想过，
为什么他在你身边的时候，不珍惜他呢？
直到当他离开你的时候，
你才哭泣，你才掉泪
回想一下，那是不是太晚了呢？

不管你再不舍得也好，
你往往还是要放下，
往往还是要坚强的走下去，
不被这些事情影响。

我在想，为什么人，是有感情的动物，
为什么人，要为事情伤心，为事情难过，
为事情掉泪，为事情影响自己的情绪。
我不了解，真的不了解。
又有谁，可以看透人的心，
看透一切的一切？

会不会有一天，
会有一个人，
可以让我不再掉泪，
不在难过，
希望我一遇到那个人了吧，
但是我还不确定，
那人是你吗？

[[周佩雯 启]]

my prize after 1 long long day!oh yeah!still got 1 ready bag!

me,zoey,ya si,ros,ya zhen!

muahahahaz!

it has been a short yet super tiring day!
but its super fun luhs!
hahas!!

went to monfort sec for a police ambassador thing

den ish like startin was lecture,

all the quiz our school de ppl also got answer,

so we got alot alot of PRIZE!

had 2 tea breaks, and 1 lunch!

hahas

sooo the funnie luhs..

the guys are like takin and eating like mad!

hahas!!

anson brother ish more shuaii den him okay!

muahahzz

LOL!

im just being random=)

im super tired..

tml finally dun need to go school lehs.

can sleep late=)

tats all for today=)

byebye!

[[EILEEN]]

TUESDAY♥

randomin with weiling while waiting for yunyue to come out from her dance.

alright,will studyin with yun yue,she stared at this page for 10mins!muahahazz!

WEDNESDAY♥

played frisbee,den alistair was like HIGH!>.<

ernest and vincent=)ernest ish cute=)=)

taken by miss choo...she was randomin!argh!

alistair,vincent and ernest

smilex...

today was somehow good bahs..

during maths, we got the news that biology remedial was cancelled.

after maths remedial, was spending time with yunue,kelly,alistair,ernest,vincent and edwin..

we was soooo bored,and started playin frisbee=)

after that,

went for lunch with yunyue,alistair,vincent and ernest..

while kelly went home,

cos her mother din let her have lunch with us..

after that,

went back school..

and started studyin..

den went to bishan library to study..

muahahazz...

was like argh when i dunno how to do the maths question,

but tweety save my life bahs=)

cos he knows how to do!

muahahazz=)=)

tat's all for today bahs..

nothin much to say too..

byebye

[[EILEEN]]

JIAYOUS CHENWEILING FOR YOUR PIANO EXAM TML♥

oh yeah
it has been another long long and super tiring day..
seems that things never failed to end..
im like really really tired of wakin up so early,
going to school,extra lesson..
den study and wait for time to pass again..
and extra lesson again..
reachin home at around 7 everyday,
i feel that its worst den school days siia!
but its lucky for me,
to have my friends there for me
spendin time with me,
and listen to my ARGH!!
and me there,
for my friends,
listening to their ARGH too!
haiish..
really tired bahs
im having a headache, and my shoulder ish super pain now..
but who cares after all?
actually,it doesnt matter to anyone at all..
im tired..
tats all for today bahs..
byebye
[[EILEEN]]
jealousy filled me
but you will never know
as it doesnt matters to you at all
even though we might be really close together,
but yet,i can never replace someone in your heart.
i teared♥

THE RANDOM US!!

feel really tired after uploadin all the photos..
argh..
will post tml=)
BYEBYE
[[EILEEN]]

its somethin that i've never thought of♥

would like to say a big big THANK YOU to....

MUM!

hahas..

shall not say much about it..

but i'm really touched bahs!

hahas!!

anyway...

yesterday i slept at around 1.20am?

and den i've got a nightmare and woke up at 2.30am again..

it was raining...

after that..

early in the mornin at 8.30am..

i receive msg from someone..

den i woke up again..

and never went back to sleep already

hahas..

so overall,

i did not sleep much luhs!!

hahas..

tml gonna wake up early again,

and go to school!

wearing class tee tml!

muahahazz!!

im super bored now..

msgin dumb dumb tweety and i feel that his weird okay..

dunno what ish he thinking..

weirdo!

muahahazz!

tats all for today=)

[[EILEEN]]

one fine day,i will catch you this evil dumb dumb tweety!im gonna win one fine day=)

muahahazz!
currently, im being alone at home again..
maybe until 10 plus 11??
i dunno...
mum today work OT
bro and sister not at home.
father went to grandma hse..den later gonna fetch my mum..
haiish..
all alone again..
soooo bored now okayy!
i've got nothin to do at home!!
argh!

september holidays ish packed up..
Monday-Wednesday- Maths extra lesson 9-11, Biology extra lesson 4-6.30....
Thursday-Npcc lecture..with jimmy and 8 other sec 2's at monfort..
Friday-no lesson,but i wanna go watch movie...dunno my mum let anot..

holiday not like holiday at all..
EOY comin soon..
hope i score well..
=)=)
byebye
[[EILEEN]]

SEPTEMBER HOLIDAY'S!!!

my results...
English->B4 [64]
Chinese->B3 [65]
Additional Maths->A2 [70]
Maths->B3 [69]
Biology->B4 [61]
Chemistry->A1 [75]
Humanities-> C5 [56]


alright..
results isn't that good after all..
although i did improve in the subjects that i use to be veri weak in,
but the subjects that i'm strong with ish droppin really badly..
like maths,from A2-B3...
and Bio,from B3-B4!
argh!!its killing me okayy!!!

muahahazz..
anyway...
today not going anywhere..
cos later on at 2 plus got tuition for my chem=)
hahas!
actually ish tml des..
but tml going out..
so change to today lo!
muahahazz!!
tat's all for today bahs..
byebye
[[EILEEN]]

its getting better and better♥

wooh...
training for today was quite fun bahs..
cos we learnt advance drills and played games..
although it wasnt in our proposal..
X.x...
was really like going to die bahs..
cos i wasnt feelin really well the pass few days.
and was havin a gastric..hahas..
but who cares...
i still manage to endure through bahs..
was feeling giddy when i stand up..
cos...argh...i should know that i shouldnt stand up so quickly and run about that much..
but i still ran bahs...cos i don't want to walk...
my health will turn better yeah!
hope one fine day,
there will be no more giddy spells...
i reallly wish soo!cos the feeling just SUCKS!
hahas..
tat's all for today bahs..
byebye
[[EILEEN]]
you dumb dumb ass...
always make me worry..argh..
take care of yourself luhs
always say know how to take care of yourself,
but yet only know how to say only..
worried♥

读书，为什么要那么辛苦呢？

我真的觉得很生气，

为什么大家都可以，

但是我又不可以呢！

太不公平了吧！！！

好讨厌这种感觉。。。

好伤心，好伤心。。。

haiish...
im really tryin to study really hard..
and im really worried bahs...
EOY ish comin really soon..
and im like not understanding some stuff..
feel really like shit to see my grades drop..
although i did improve,
but yet,
im still deprovin..
im tryin my veri veri veri veri BEST to score really well,
to make my parents happy,to make them proud..
and hit my target, and get into the school i wan,get into the job i dream.
but yet...what im doing ish really helpin me really alot,
but yet,they just dun understand..
all she know ish scold scold and SCOLD!
she has never stand in my shoe..
to understand what i really need..

to me,
o'lvls seems like nearer and nearer...
even though the sec4's haven even took their's..
but i feel that veri soon,
next year would approach..
im worried that i cannot catch up next year..
im worried that i cannot score well..
im worried that i will deprove,
im worried that everythin would not go well..
im worried about EVERY SINGLE THING...

everythin seems so shity...
all i wanna, was to go to somewhere,where i can absorb and study..
and the place would never be at home.
all i do when i reach home was to bath,eat and use com..
i dun study at home!not in the correct mood,doesnt have the correct atmosphere...
im sick of it bahs..
it just makes me feel like soo SHIT!
but im gonna stay strong..
im not gonna let all these stuff affect me..
jiayous eileenchewpeiwen
you can do it..
只要我相信，我一定能做到的！加油，加油，加油！
我不会为了小事掉泪，因为，我是勇敢的小孩=）

[[EILEEN]]

im worried,really worried♥

i've a bad feeling,

really a bad feeling.

how i wish things din go so well,

between you and me.

im worried,

that one fine day,

i will depend on you...

woohoo!
it has been another day...
studyin and studyin and studyin..
never ending...
i fall sick again okay..
finish extra lesson den while going home,
i felt really blur and super unwell bahs..
so i went home,bath and slept till 6.30
but my mum just kept scoldin me okayy!argh...
den went for tuition..
super cold there,
cos i never bring my jacket...
haiish...
but i manage to absorb alittle here and there bahs..
so i just came home from tuition like not long ago..

gonna wake up super early tml again,
to complete all my work..
i cant study anymore today,
as i think i will die if i carry on studyin..
so i shall wake up really early tml to complete my work..
hahas...
tats all for today bahs...
byebye.
[[EILEEN]]

♥ ♥ ♥ ILOVE CHOOYUNYUE♥ ♥ ♥

muahahazz...
met yunyue at 1130 at kovan mrt..
den we went to ion orchard to have our ice cream buffet.
we only went in at like 1230..
den we started eating like mad!
hahas..
had quite alot of fun luhs..
den we also grumble to each other alot!
hahas!
after that,
yunyue went to met her brother to play badminton,
while i went to study at bishan library
hahas..
i managed to absorb in the biology that i've read through bahs=)
oh yeah...
had some fun there too..
but it was sooooo super duper cold..
even though i was like wearin a jacket...
and so,i borrowed from monster and therefore, wore 2 jacket...thank you=)
smilex!
school tml..
omg.
siianx..
anyway..
to everyone,
GOOD LUCK FOR YOUR PRELIMS TML=)
byebye
[[EILEEN]]
smilex
thank you for today
take good care of youself luhs♥

one simple word from you,
could affect the mood of the day
something which doesn't seems real,
but it's true♥

woke up at 0830...
and now the time ish 0901...
im really tired..
but im going out at 1100..
so no choice,
i have to wake up early...
hahas!
hope today would be an enjoyable day=)
[[EILEEN]]