back postin after a few days bahs..
studies and stuff..
hahas..
and today till tuesday..
i dun think i will be touchin any books anymore le bahs..
need some rest..
before i start all over again..

alright..
about today..
after the entire event i cried bahs...
due to me being touched,pissed, and also own emotional problems bahs..
when i was doin my duty,i was so afraid tat things will go wrong..
but when everythin was over..
i was overjoyed..
but things din go so well in control room..
i just dun understand why will communication go wrong luhs..
den gettin so much stupid attitude was another problem.

haiish..
anyway...
yesterday night..
sayin goodbye to you was after much thinkin bahs..
one fine day..
you will find out wad was it for...
i've got nothing else tat i could do..
and tats the last thing i have to resort to le bahs..
i dunno was it right or not..
but i dun wish to hurt anyone anymore..
even if it doesnt realli matters to you..
but to me..
its alot...
everythin has to be erased from the startin..
hope tat it could be done bahs..

all the things tat happened..
all the tears tat drop..
would soon be washed away..
hoping tat it would not happen..
but no choice it still happened..
alot of things dun come in straight..
but it comes in rounds and rounds..

i dunno bahs..
confused...
and i noe tat i cant believe on anyone anymore le bahs..
i gave up on hopin...
i gave up on wishes..
i gave up on rainbows..
i gave up on stars..
i gave up on clouds..
and..
soon..
givin up myself...

[[EILEEN]]