FRIENDS FOREVER?

i've been thinking about this for almost the whole to today..

What Does Friends Forever really means?

maybe this explains why my mood was like soooo not good in class...

and i finally understand that i've lost a really close friend to me...

not knowing until i finally felt it...

it happened like during our study camp...

due to a change in sitting arrangement..everything changed perhaps...

no more long hours of talking time through the phone...

no more random msges from each other...

no more jokes and laughters..

no more studying together....

perhaps due to stress and o's approaching...

we've drifted...i'm totally upset...

but what can i do to stop the drifting...i really wonder...

i found a great friend who would call me back when she's busy...

i found a great friend who would talk to me about how she admire this guy...

i found a great friend who would pity me for getting into stupid things a time...

i found a great friend who would share tons of gossips with me...

i found a great friend who would tell me tons and tons of things..

i found a great friend that would ask me " What's Wrong Girl?"

den until now...i found that i've lost this great friend..

perhaps i could say, MY BEST FRIEND...

i hope that everything would be back to normal...

i hope that it won't have to be kept as memories...and i hope that this would last forever...

i just feel like saying this..but I MISS YOU GIRL...

i miss all the fun time we had together....

i miss every little things that happened, between you and me...

i hope you know who you are...and i hope that you would be able to read this post..

if you happens to pop by....

i hope so...this ish your favourite colour.i suppose..

as for my partner now..

the only thing i know that we've changed from friends into good friends..

but i think that we would never be best friends...perhaps...

i know i'm not the correct piece of jigsaw to fix into the puzzle...

i love the time i spent together with you...

but yet, the feeling between a good friend and a best friend...

ish totally different i suppose...

i've always know that a odd number friendship would have problems...

someone has to be left out...

but yet...i rather i'm the one who has been left out...

but not you my best friend...

ever since after that incident...

everything changed..and everything was no longer the same...

a changed from an even number friendship, to an odd number friendship...

being the center person...i don't know what am i suppose to do...

and i've stepped into the wrong path..

causing such an ending to happen...

i've used to be alone..

not really alone..but i don't stay with only 1 particular bunch of friends...

but i hang out with different bunch of friends at different point of the time...

i knew that this way, no one would get hurt...

but this time round..it's different...

i've always wanted to post this out...but i've hesitated...

i think now ish the time i shall say all the out...

as i've regretted losing my best friend...

and i don't want to regret again..

[[EILEEN]]