heyy peeps..
back posting once again..
haiish..
this two days...
i think alot and alot and alot..
too much till my brain gonna break..
think of it every night..
think of it whenever im free..
im so tired..
realli so tired..
i seems happy everywhere i go..
but i found out tat im smiling..
but yet..
i just runnin away from everything..

found out tat i haven settle everythin yet..
and also...
unable to start from everywhere..
im halfway out..
but i need someone to pull me out..
but yet..
there's another person pulling me in again...
pls pull me out..
im scared..
i doesnt want to live in the dark anymore..
i doesnt want to live in tears anymore..

i just want to be the happylilme..
just like before..
please give me a pull..
i scared of the dark..
and scared of being alone..
i dont want this feeling anymore..
im realli scared...
i feel realli hopeless today..
i dunno why..
after wadever i said during waiting for the bus and on the bus..
i feel tat im just someone hu realli should be blamed..
i shouldn't be with him..
and shouldn't drag him down..
maybe if i wasnt with him..
he wont have to retain...
im scared of such things happening again..
im realli scared...

HIESS...this ish for you...
to me...
you are realli a realli gd friend..
realli someone nice to tok to..
and spend time with..
but im scared tat i would land you into his state...
im scared tat i would drag you down..
im scared of everythin...
so...
i think its better for us to stay as just friends...
and not having too much fun together bahs...
ilove the days i spend the days with you..
i love the jokes with you...
but im afraid i would let you down...
as i realli treat you as a realli realli gd friend..
i cant afford to see anyone being drag down because of me...
i noe whatever you said ish jokin..
but i've realli thought through..

ppl close to me...
would always be unlucky..
and i would always land them in a bad state..
i dunwan to see this happen again...
hope when you graduate...
you would still remember this friend tat ish always random...
always crazy...
hope you would like the gift im gonna give you..
when you POP...
gd luck..
study hard..
and dun let this random girl down..
yeahh..

[[EILEEN]]







我再次被动摇了。。。
觉得我好傻好傻。。。
应为我知道一切的一切会回到以前一样。。。
真的不知道我到底在想什么。。。
在我最需要一个人在我身边的时候。。。
你总是不在。。
但为什么。。。
在我想要温暖的时候。。
你总会出现在我身边。。。
我到底是发生了什么事！！！
啊！！！！！！
被动摇的途中。。。
我想了很多，很多。。。
可能。。。现在还不是时候。。
我能真正的喜欢上他。。。
真的好乱，好乱。。。
不知道我应怎么做。。。