wahahas...
back postin once again..
pics not ready yet..
cos im too lazy..
hahas..
actualli wanted to start studyin at 1.30pm..
but lastly decided to use com for a while before studyin luhs
im always so guaii okayy..
hahas...
err got chinese things to do..
but im just plain lazy okayy
i have to admit tat..
cos i just dun feel lyke studyin cos feeling rather unwell for the past few days..

yesterday din go for trainin hahas..
hope they would be enjoyin themselves!!
wahahas...
anyway..
i dun think i want to stay overnight for duty on the sec1 orientation camp bahs..
believe tat idiot got come my blog to see..
hahas..
and so i dun need to give anymore excuses cos i dun wan to say it in school..
there's reason behind it bahs..
and its a big one..
if you dunwan to camp to be moody den i better dun go bahs..
hahas..
later you say i emo again..
LOL
its not about wadever stuff luhs..
just tat i would try to help out bahs..
i dunwan to lyke give face there..
although i realli wanted to stay overnight..
but i noe i cant do it bahs..
hope you understand..
hahas..

tats all bahs.
byebye..
[[EILEEN]]

its lyke so called after new year to me le bahs..
cos no more celebrations lehs...
den went back school on wednesday
and SICKED...
lol...
coughin lyke non-stop luhs
den feeling rather unwell bahs..
and lots of stuff bahs...
haiish...
blahblahblah..
sometimes knowin too much things also not gd bahs..
hahas
and i had enough of blahblahblah things..
and so..
i start to blahblahblah about..
hahas..
maybe you guys might not understand..
but i understand can lehs..
cos you all cannot noe..
wahahas..
abit sot le..
hahas..
tats all bahs..
soon will post my new year pics up...
its just some clothes with me on it..
and my aunty's husky!!
wahahas
byebye
[[EILEEN]]

did some test

[[MORE ABOUT MYSELF]]

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education

You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:

You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.


[[PERSONALITY TEST]]

Kind and Gentle

Your kindness is your charm - you are also gentle and sweet. Everybody likes to be around people with your personality. Like a psychologist, people like to talk to you to discuss their problems because you are proper and discrete, as well as confident. You look mature and people respect you. People with this kind of character are few and far between.

back postin after a few days bahs..
studies and stuff..
hahas..
and today till tuesday..
i dun think i will be touchin any books anymore le bahs..
need some rest..
before i start all over again..

alright..
about today..
after the entire event i cried bahs...
due to me being touched,pissed, and also own emotional problems bahs..
when i was doin my duty,i was so afraid tat things will go wrong..
but when everythin was over..
i was overjoyed..
but things din go so well in control room..
i just dun understand why will communication go wrong luhs..
den gettin so much stupid attitude was another problem.

haiish..
anyway...
yesterday night..
sayin goodbye to you was after much thinkin bahs..
one fine day..
you will find out wad was it for...
i've got nothing else tat i could do..
and tats the last thing i have to resort to le bahs..
i dunno was it right or not..
but i dun wish to hurt anyone anymore..
even if it doesnt realli matters to you..
but to me..
its alot...
everythin has to be erased from the startin..
hope tat it could be done bahs..

all the things tat happened..
all the tears tat drop..
would soon be washed away..
hoping tat it would not happen..
but no choice it still happened..
alot of things dun come in straight..
but it comes in rounds and rounds..

i dunno bahs..
confused...
and i noe tat i cant believe on anyone anymore le bahs..
i gave up on hopin...
i gave up on wishes..
i gave up on rainbows..
i gave up on stars..
i gave up on clouds..
and..
soon..
givin up myself...

[[EILEEN]]

badges and name tag!!
another one
during chem lesson...experiment on distillation,the clear blue solvent
had a beaker of water and the substance being put on top..
water boilin so chio!!
the blue solvent and the boiling beaker
me and janice..hahas..she ish super nice...but as crazy as me..!
another experiment.the out come of the experiment super chio...but i forgot wad experiment was it..X.x


alright...
yesterday studied till 11pm den went to sleep..
din rest at all..
when i was on my bed...
all i got inside was bio and maths questions...
LOL...
manage to sleep well..
and felt realli tired went i was suppose to wake up at 6.10am this morning..
reached school realli so called late..
cos i was super slow this mornin..
wahahas

den made lesson..
was realli tired..
and felt realli sick..
cos eyes pain,headache...den coughin and sneezin once again.
but i still went for trainin after eatin panadol luhs..
so pathetic...
den went training..
was fun and enjoyable lyke always..
and we got to take rifle wahahas..
den we learn abit..
but super pain cos the hand keep kanna hit..
den now got blue black...zzz
den time to go home..
edsteve and me helped out to keep the rifle in no.
but i went off earlier.
cos my mum called..
den i went to bus stop..
den saw yiwei and sam..
sam scare me!!X.x
den yiwei pei wo bus home..
while sam runs home..
cos i think his late for somethin.??

lol
reached home..
ate..
bathed..
and once again..
i got a cut on my finger..
yesterday the exact same thing happened..
and it happened today..
stupid..
cos the shower head got problem luhs
so sharp.
i think by end of this week..
i can get all my fingers cut already..
lol..
lost of blood..
and need alot of white blood cells to fight the bacteria's hahas.
so bio siio me..
lol

alright...
tats all for today perhaps...
mood still unstable..
but i feel tat im just actin around in school..
i dunno why
i just cant let my feelings out..
hahas..
X.x
[[EILEEN]]

chemistry practical

the boilin chip boiling

burning but not clear!!!X.x

the sky on 15.01.09 when i was lyin on the mat in the quadrangle...

my full-u i noe not straight okayy!!

my rank for the day...i will miss you!!

my formation sign and my 3 badges!!so chio!!

total defence,sana and my big big NAME!!!i dunno why no eileen siia!!!

another side view of my 3 chio badges!!


tats all for pictures...

currently...

still not feeling realli well..

but im much better already...

and so...

yesterday reached home realli late..

den got realli pissed of by my sisters' msg...

i have to be realli straight now...

I HAD ENOUGH OF ALL THIS OKAYY..

THERE ISH NOTHIN BETWEEN ME AND BK ANYMORE..

SO STOP CRAPIN..

I NOE YOU DID READ MY POST..

AND IM SURE YOU DID NOT FAIL UR CHINESE..

I HAD ENOUGH..

I DUN CARE HU YOU ARE EVEN IF YOU ARE MY BLOOD-RELATED SISTER...

ONE MORE CRAP FROM YOU...

AS I SAID..

I WOULD GIVE YOU ONE TIGHT SLAP..

WHEN I WAS WITH HIM..

YOU CRAP..

AND NOW TAT I AM NOT WITH HIM..

YOU CRAP EVEN MORE..

SO DO YOU EVER FEEL TAT YOU ARE A GD SISTER...

YOU ARE JUST SOMEONE HU DOESNT CARE ABOUT PPL AROUND YOU..

SO JUST SHUT UR STUPID BIG MOUTH UP..

I HAD ENOUGH OF ALL THESE NONSENSE..

THIS WOULD BE THE LAST TIME IM SAYIN THIS...

I DUN CARE WHETHER I GET STRIKE BY LIGHTIN BECAUSE I SLAP MY SISTER..

I HAVE TO PROTECT MYSELF..

AND MY OWN FEELINGS..

AND YOU GOT NO RIGHT TO INTEFERE...

SO JUST GET OUT OF MY LIFE OKAYY!!!

YOU THINK YOU ARE REALLI GREAT TO MAKE A JOKE OUT OF ME..

DEN I TELL YOU...YOU R THE WORST PERSON ON EARTH..

YOU HURT UR OWN SISTER JUST LYKE THIS..

I RATHER I DIE EARLIER DEN I GET HURT FROM YOU...

YOU NEVER NOE TAT YOU ARE THE ONE HU ISH HURTIN ME THE MOST..

I NOE YOU CARES ABOUT ME..

BUT PLS SPARE A THOUGHT FOR ME..

IM REALLI SICKED AND TIRED OF EVERYTHIN FROM YOU..

HOW I WISH YOU WASNT AROUND TO INTEFERE...

EVERYONE GOT THEIR OWN PRIVACY...

AND THEIR OWN FEELINGS..

AND YOU GOT NO RIGHT TO HURT THEM...

JUST LYKE HOW I DUN CARE ABOUT UR STUFF..

COS IT DOESNT CONCERNS ME..

AND I NOE I DUN LYKE TO HURT PPL...

YOU ARE SO EVIL...

REALLI REALLI SO EVIL..

SO STOP ALL THESE NONSENSE...

I JUST WAN TO HAVE A NICE SISTER...

NOT A SISTER TAT WOULD HURT ME TAT MUCH..

I WAN SOMEONE HU CARES..

BUT NOT SOMEONE HU BULLIES...

YOU ARE A BIG BIG BULLIE...

I DUN GET UPSET OVER HIM..

BUT NOW...

I UPSET OVER HOW YOU TREATED ME..

[[EILEEN]]

我以为我放下了那段漫长的恋情。。。
在这六个月里，我学会了什么叫做坚强。。
今天是一月十六日。。也是我们的一年半的感情。。
事情难以在意料之外。。。
而很多事是难以控制的。。。
还记得在我门一年的前夕，你离开了我。。。
那天是七月十五日。。
那天真要开始下雨。。。
而我们俩就坐在三楼。。。
我当时很混乱。。。
我不知道会发生什么事。。。
而我也不想知道。。
当你决定要离开我只侯。。。
我忍住了泪水。。。
还开开心心的陪你下楼。。。
是下这雨，而刚好干哥哥在那里。。。
他陪我走去巴士站。。。
我哭了。。。
但没人看到。。。
但我没哭很久。。。

事情过去了那么久。。
而我还深深的记住当时的景。。。
而也不会忘记当我发现到所有的谎言的那一天。。。
那天是生命中最痛苦的一天。。。
也是悲剧的开始。。
2009年，我还以为我完完全全的忘记你了。。。
而也下定决心要好好努力的读书。。。
但今天。。
不知道为什么。。。
好多事情跑回我的脑海里。。。
我知道我不再爱你。。。
但我知道我还忘不了我们的美好的回忆。。。
我们分分合合。。。吵吵闹闹。。
多是我们回忆的一部分。。。
我深爱过你，所以得放开你。。。
我不能那么自私。。
为了自己。。。
而把你留在我的身边。。。
我们曾经是朋友，然后是恋人，最后成为了最熟悉的朋友和陌生人。。。
[[周佩雯 启]]