haiish...
np ish filled with alot of things..
studies had became more and more tough...
more and more responsibility being held on...
i feel so the tired bahs..
even if i want to study..
i just cant do it...
i dun understand why...

i totalli dont have that mood to study at home..
i also dont know why...
training nowadays had been great..
as we are NCO-t's now...
and we will be followin CI's around to learn from them...
i realli wonder,
if i could be a real NCO...
maybe yes..?
maybe not..?
i don't know..
but all i noe now ish that im always feeling cold like nobodies business..
while the others are realli warm..

dun understand why more and more headaches are happening again..
dun understand why am i getting sick more and more often..
that didn't happen in the previous time before..
feel so shity..
feel so irritated...
by all this crap happening to me...
why must i be the one..??
why cant i be the one that ish super healthy..??
i look normal.
but im not..
i wana be normal..
but i can't...
why do ppl have to look at me in different ways...
why ish that so...


sometimes i realli wonder..
why cant there be someone...
there...
when i need one...
found out that whenever i need a person around me..
no one would be there...
feel so the wad!!!!

[[EILEEN]]