heyy peeps..
back posting once again..
haiish..
this two days...
i think alot and alot and alot..
too much till my brain gonna break..
think of it every night..
think of it whenever im free..
im so tired..
realli so tired..
i seems happy everywhere i go..
but i found out tat im smiling..
but yet..
i just runnin away from everything..

found out tat i haven settle everythin yet..
and also...
unable to start from everywhere..
im halfway out..
but i need someone to pull me out..
but yet..
there's another person pulling me in again...
pls pull me out..
im scared..
i doesnt want to live in the dark anymore..
i doesnt want to live in tears anymore..

i just want to be the happylilme..
just like before..
please give me a pull..
i scared of the dark..
and scared of being alone..
i dont want this feeling anymore..
im realli scared...
i feel realli hopeless today..
i dunno why..
after wadever i said during waiting for the bus and on the bus..
i feel tat im just someone hu realli should be blamed..
i shouldn't be with him..
and shouldn't drag him down..
maybe if i wasnt with him..
he wont have to retain...
im scared of such things happening again..
im realli scared...

HIESS...this ish for you...
to me...
you are realli a realli gd friend..
realli someone nice to tok to..
and spend time with..
but im scared tat i would land you into his state...
im scared tat i would drag you down..
im scared of everythin...
so...
i think its better for us to stay as just friends...
and not having too much fun together bahs...
ilove the days i spend the days with you..
i love the jokes with you...
but im afraid i would let you down...
as i realli treat you as a realli realli gd friend..
i cant afford to see anyone being drag down because of me...
i noe whatever you said ish jokin..
but i've realli thought through..

ppl close to me...
would always be unlucky..
and i would always land them in a bad state..
i dunwan to see this happen again...
hope when you graduate...
you would still remember this friend tat ish always random...
always crazy...
hope you would like the gift im gonna give you..
when you POP...
gd luck..
study hard..
and dun let this random girl down..
yeahh..

[[EILEEN]]







我再次被动摇了。。。
觉得我好傻好傻。。。
应为我知道一切的一切会回到以前一样。。。
真的不知道我到底在想什么。。。
在我最需要一个人在我身边的时候。。。
你总是不在。。
但为什么。。。
在我想要温暖的时候。。
你总会出现在我身边。。。
我到底是发生了什么事！！！
啊！！！！！！
被动摇的途中。。。
我想了很多，很多。。。
可能。。。现在还不是时候。。
我能真正的喜欢上他。。。
真的好乱，好乱。。。
不知道我应怎么做。。。

SO SCARED!!!!

omg...
NCO camp approachin le l0rx!!
and im like still sick here sick there...
lol..

today was like super cold in the morning...
was much better during sat and sun..
den today.
went to school..
during my mt lesson..
my face ish like totalli hot and i felt realli like shit luhs..
but after tat i was okayy...
but just rather unwell...
training wise...
felt unwell but still managed to carry on..
today not realli tough..
so nothin much to crap about...

3 more days to SCHOOL HOLIDAYS!!
but its fully packed!!!
lets see... ...

MONDAY[[160309]]------>>ICT PROGRAMME ,MAYBE SOME MES TRAINNG
TUESDAY-THURSDAY[[170309-190309]]------->>NCO CAMP!!!
FRIDAY[[200309]]----->>MES OUTING TO TREETOP AKA DADS BTHDAE!!!
SATURDAY[[210309]]----->>JOANNE JIE BTHDAE,OUT WITH JANICE AND SHI HUI
SUNDAY[[220309]]------->>REST AND HOMEWORK DAY,TUITION!!

woohh..
hahas..
this ish like how im gonna spend my holliday..??
with no breaks..??
lol..
think other ppl plan also not bad either..
hahas..
1 week ish far too little for me to rest man!!

hahas...
anyway..
i hope i recover fully soon...
as i doesnt want to be sick anymore.
sick and tired of it..
zzz
tats all
byebye!!
[[EILEEN]]

{{i looked out and saw you there...}}
{{and bump into you when walking down the stairs}}
{{you looked out everytime i walk pass}}
{{but yet you will never get to know there's someone around liking you}}
{{and i believe tat...you will never know}}
{{maybe not even a slight little chance}}
{{as i like you,but im still not ready to start everything all over again}}
{{as well as im too tired of getting hurt}}
{{so i shall stay around and lookout for you}}
{{as im not ready for everything}}
{{but it would realli be nice}}
{{if i get to know you better}}
{{but i would never ever approach you to tell you iloveyou]]
{{♥imissyou _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _♥}}

ME AND MY BLAHBLAHBLAH!!=)



hehehezzz
back posting!!!
lalalalass...
today abit over hyper..
but quite happy cos i finish my homework in school=)
so i can use the com now=)
wahahasss!!!
today...
i handed in my reflection...
and was like im the only one who realli wrote that long bahs..
hahas..

i used 2 hrs to type out my entire reflection..
and i feel tat i have somehow thrown everythin out..
so feeling much better now..??
its like the first time i was told to write a reflection after like 1/2 year in M.E.S
but was like got nothin much to write about it...
but i still managed to crap..
it was so long as i have to like tok about the 10 individual juniors..
tats alot okkayy..
den one person around 4-7 lines..??
so that make up a long long so called "essay"
LOL!!!

but whatever i said in my reflection towards the entire crew ish true bahs..
and im serious about what i said luhs!!
cos its like totalli no point if this type of situation carries on..
so JOSHUA!!do ur JOB!!!you should understand wad i MEAN!!!
WAHAHASS!!!
anyway..
speech day ish round the corner..
and i found out that i have been like missing the parade..
as im like 2 weeks of not being in the parade..??
2 weeks before was a totalli crap as i felt like im gonna die..??
hahas..
felt realli uncomfortable..
and last week..
was down with fever!!
WTH!!!
lol..
if i was OOC,
i would cry man!!
i love to be in contigent..
but im afraid that i would be out..
cos im always like unwell!!
WHY SHOULD THIS TYPE OF THING HAPPEN TO ME!!!
LOL!!!

that should be all for today le bahs..
its a cold cold cold day..
so do keep urself warm=)
dun get sick like me=)
byebye!!

[[EILEEN]]

wooohh!!!
hahas..
finalli back after 2 days of MC for myself..
never MC from school MC from cca and housework!!!
my housework ish washin my tortor=)
hahas...

anyway...
feeling much much better
and now tokin to edwin toh kim yong on the phone..
he ish crazy and has STM!!
hahas..
he ish boasting his blog song veri nice..
but actualli its quite nice luhs...=)

hahas...
anyway today ish a BORING DAY..
just any other day nothing nice..
but i finish my STORYBOOK=)
its a love story and quite nice luhs..
and off course FUNNY!!!
=)
alright thats all for today bahs..
=)
sayonarah!!!

[[EILEEN!!]]

喜欢一个人没有罪！！！
angry siia me..
when i went home today...
my mother and sister was lyke crappin again...
cos my sister read my blog..
and start CRAPPIN again..
i like someone doesnt mean tat im steadin with tat person okayy..
and i DID NOT DO ANYTHIN TO AFFECT MY STUDIES LUHS!!
so stop crappin luhs!!
WTH LUHS!!
unFAIR!!!
my studies arent affected okayy...
and im spendin my time startin.
not mixin around with guys..
and flirtin with them okayy..

off course i got guys friends wads..
so wads the BIG DEAL about tat..
my sister also got a big bunch of GUYS FRIENDS..
and my mother never said anythin before...
but why ish it happenin to me tat my mother care so much about the ppl around me..
feel so IRRITATED LUHS!!!
ITS ALWAYS SO UNFAIR!!!

anyway..
enough of angers..
LOL...
lets see..
today lesson..
err...errr....
nothin fun..
but i din do well for my MT paper bahs..
only got 29/50
was lyke kind of sad bahs..
seldom get so low..
but i think i can do better next time..
i hope so..
haiish!!!
currently okayy for all my subjects but not my mt.
dunno why..
feel totalli no mood when i read the passage..
cos i find it lyke..
got no feeling after readin..
siianx..
den yesterday got bio pop test..
and ms kok mark out lehs..
i got 13.5/15..
hahas..
not bad rite..=)
last minute study..
not bad..
LOL!!
but i noe tat next time cannot lehs..
cos there ish lyke more and more things to remember..
hahas..
but i like bio!!
wahahas

as for assembly today..
symphony 92.4 came to our school..
and i was lyke so unhappy with someone's attitude okayy..
its realli ish lyke SHIT!!!
LOL!!
and i feel realli nnot not not happy..
and realli dislike the attitude of his bahs..
his just actin boss..
and think tat he got alot of potential and leadership..
but actualli..
HE GOT NOTHIN!!
how i wish i can scream at him man..
but i noe i cant...
cos i also dun have so much energy to waste my time on such ppl..
hu cares..
i got no rites in M.E.S to scold him
his more experience..
so let it be luhs..
why care so much..
im sec 3 more..
and dunwan have so much time to waste on such ppl!!
blahblahblah..

woooh..
my mum ish CRAZY!!
wahahas..
hu cares!!!
LOL!!
she crazy and so ish my FAMILY!!
wahahasss!!!
but im not..
just over HYPERED!!!=)
tats all..
going for tuition soon..
gonna have alot of brain cells dead..
sobx..
byebye!!!
[[EILEEN]]

weeee!!
im back postin after one day!!
wahahas
-.-"
cos tml test ish postponed..
so i decided to rest another day..
but my hands are realli achin now..
ahh!!!

anyway about TODAY!!!
schoolin..
lesson..
a-maths lesson,took back a-maths paper..
was kind of sad..
but was kind of shock too..
cos i got 34/50 and ish lyke i throw 4-6 marks away due to careless..
haiish..
but shock cos i thought i would fail the paper bahs..
chemistry time..
took back chem paper..
i was lyke SUPER HAPPY!!
although i din score well luhs.
but i got 31/50 hahas..
was lyke..
I FINALLI PASS MY CHEMISTRY!!!

hahahas..
currently,i got all B's and A's for my results bahs..
just left with social studies and history..
hope tat i would pass and at least get a B bahs.
cos i dun wish to see a C on my report card..
not chio enough...
wahahas!!!

trainin..
TIRING!!
hahas
did rifle drill today..
and brought pt to school for nothin.
cos today was lyke RAININ THE ENTIRE DAY!!
and was super COLD!!
cos my skirt was lyke kind of SHORT..??
LOL...
trainin learn something new..
hahas
saluting with rifle...
took quite a long time to learn..
cos was lyke HARD..
and PAINFUL!!!
hahas..
den today i took rifle NO.007
hahas..
they said tat it ish a heavy rifle.
and i agree with tat in the endin..
had hard time takin it...
LOL..
cos super pain!!
sobx..
today,
we also took our NPCC manual booklet..
was lyke so thick..
and i find it quite nice luhs
hahas
im gonna lyke colour the front page soon...

wahahas..
this few days in school..
was lyke SUPER HYPER..
and SUPER CHILDISH..>.<
cos i was lyke veri addicted by this song..
OLD MAC DONALD HAD A FARM...EYAEYAOH!!!
den yesterday mr yeo never come..
den was lyke singin this song.
to discribe him not comin.
wahahazzz!!

anyway..
my mum just came home..
and she bought some vitamins to give me more blood bahs..
hahas..
not havin alot of blood ish reallli a veri bad experience im havin now.
hahas..
cold forever..
hands and feet always white white des..
and blood circulation veri bad..
hahas..
its realli lyke so the wad for me luhs..
so uneasy for me bahs..
a veri sporty girl..
now cannot do this cannot do tat.
do too much will giddy den will DIE!!
wahahas
just jokin..
will FAINT and GIDDY!!
tats wad i mean.
ahhhH!!!
i dun lyke luhs!!
I WANNA GET WELL SOON..
SO MY TRAININ WONT BE AFFECTED MAN!!!


anyway..
tats all for today..
byebye!!
[[EILEEN]]



today you walked pass me alot of times..
hahas.
was lyke ohhh..
hahas..
weeee...
den i was lyke quite happy..
but i din show out luhs.
cant be i see you walking pass..
and start smilin..??
hahas..
walked pass ur class..
and you did look out..
wahahas..
so i manage to see you!!
wahaahasss!!!
for a nearer view i mean..??
smilex!!!
tml will be doin left duty!!!
YEAH!!!
so happy..!!
tats all!!
<3<3

wooH!!!
im back postin!!=)

wahahas...
as common test is lyke FINALLI OVER!!
after today last paper=)
got back some results too..
not realli pleased with the results...

ENGLISH->18/30 badbad!!!
E-MATHS->38/50 veri bad...cos i could get 45/50..lose 7 marks due to careless!!!WTH!!
BIOLOGY->36/50 okayy okayy luhs..deproved by 1 mark!!bad.>.

wahahas.
just now saw RAINBOW!!
JOSHUA SEE tell me one!!
wahahas..
den ish lyke awww...
so nice..
wahahas..
cos its lyke veri long never see tio lehs..
den felt so HAPPY!!
anyway..
today mr yeo never come.
and i was lyke so hyper.??
LOL!!!
hahas..
ilove the way im living now=)
wahahas..
tats all for today..
will try to find more time out to post alittle more yeah..
so stupid idiot wont say i never post den veri BORING!!
LOL!!
byebye!!

now 2 people know who im in love with..
im afraid tat you will get to know someday..
but i dont wish tat you know about tat..
all i wish was to see a smile on ur face..
whenever i get to see you...
its more then enough for now..
i dont expect much..
but just a little smile from you...
although can only see it from far..
but it doesnt matters...
so hope you wont get to know bahs..

if you was to ask me for stead...
i would surely agree with it..
but i know tat it would not happen..
cos you dont even know tat ILOVEYOU!!!
anyway...
i REALLI LOVEYOU!!=)<3


{{EILEEN}}