finalli..
im back postin..
after sometime..
if im not wrong bahs..
LOL..
time passed realli realli fast..
and its lyke next week,would be common test week lehs..
but im totalli lyke so tired over everythin..
studies,cca and every single day..
always reach home so late..
and everytime would be filled with homeworks..
tests the followin day...
and so on..
never had a time to realli relax down..
if not i would be tight up with tuition..

feel so stressed..
but yet i still think i can more or less cope it bahs..
LOL>.<
just pray hard tat i wont fail any of my subjects bahs..
i realli dunwan to fail..
as i dunwan to break into tears..
just because of a common test..
hope the results tat come out..
wont affect my emotion and my strength to study bahs...

currently listenin to the song in my blog..
hahas..
got alot of feelings to it after all..
but i just love the song okayy..
hahas..
so nice..=)
this was once a song which i cannot find for so long..
but now when its no longer tat meaningful..
i manage to find it..
wahahas..
i jusst love it!!
wahahas!!

yesterday was sec 4's PTC..
hahas..
din manage to see him..
cos i was doin my duty..
LOL x.x!!!
actualli traffic duty ish not tat fun after all..
but the parents are realli friendly=)
and thank you jamal..
for walkin here and there to let us hydrate ourselves..
although its water cooler okayy!!
but i realli dislike the taste..
reali not nice!!!
LOL...

anyway..
after duty..
went up to control room too see if everythin was okayy..
den was so shock tat when i first went in..
the first thing i was was the T.A so angry..
and started scoldin our crew..
ahhh..
when i saw tat i was lyke OMG..
so i just went out and went to look for joshua..
LOL..
cos i was lyke so blured out..
as i din noe wad happened and suddenly i see the T.A so angry..
LOL...

after tat..
we went up and did a small debrief..
LOL..
ohh ya...
anyway..
yesterday durin recess went to find mr sim..
and we tok to him..
but more or less..
his words wasnt wad i expect to hear..
but i agree with him about the BRIDGE part..
lol..
cos i realli think so too..
but too bad..
i doesnt want to lead..
but i just wanna do my best to help..
and i also dun have to potential to lead in M.E.S too..
im still a noobie..
and blur here and there..
so even if i can do it..
i wont have such thick skin to lyke take over..
when i lyke somehow quite a new person there..
i noe i cant help out much there..
all i can do is do the scoldin..
cos tat ME!!

i dun realli care about wad other's think about me anymore..
in cca,school or in mes..
all i noe ish..
i have to be myself..
but not act as a person..
who i dun even noe...
im not sweet..
not gentle...
so i dun have to act myself as a veri sweet and gentle girl..
but im just abit SOT at times..
LOL...
cos i enjoy myself in school..
and i enjoy the process of life..
=)
ilove school..
ilove my friends...
ilove myself..
ilove NPCC..
ilove M.E.S...
ilove 3B09..
ilove EVERYONE!!

hahas..
i enjoy lookin you from far..
enjoy just gettin to see you..
enjoy even though i dun ever get to talk to you..
and enjoy to see you laughin from far..
i enjoy dreamin about blahblahblah stuff...
and enjoy keepin it from you..
and i wont want to get any hurt..
or any thing tat would affect me..
so i would enjoy likin you silently..
and enjoy the time when you are around...
as i just enjoy one-side love..=)

tats all..
byebye!!
[[EILEEN]]