NO MORE EMO-ING... i'm gonna stop thinking about anything that will make me sad...
and concentrate on studying from tml onwards..
no more emo-ing...
no more breakin down..
i will try to keep this promise as long as i can, throughtout the next 2 months o levels period...

prelims ish like 2 days away...
woohoo!jiayous jiayous EILEEN CHEW!
i have to do well, and i really have to work hard!
jiayous :D
byebye
[[EILEEN]]
iloveyoubaby

BLAHBLAHBLAH! i'm tired of going to school..
because i feel that there's nothing nice about going to school..
and the motivation of going to school is no longer there..
i rather i stay at home and study rather than going to school..
and get emo in class? i hate the feeling when i can't find someone who i can approach to..
when i need tat person to be there..
i hate it when i just feel like talkin to that person, but my heart ish holding me back...
what am i suppose to do?
we used to be good friends...but you know..you've changed..
to someone who i dunwan to know...
can you be like before again?
i really wonder...

[[EILEEN]]

THOUGHTS... i don't know why am i posting this out, but i have to post this out so that the person whom i'm refering to would understand why i'm always saying tat person in particular!

okay...
shall name the person XXX! :P but i think that person will know who i'm refering to la!
XXX things that i don't understand the reason why he ish doing this..
but in fact, i can totally understand why the hell he ish doing this...
i know he wants the best out of it, so that he could do something for the teachers...
but the fact ish that PRELIMS are coming! and i would seriously like to ask...HOW MUCH TIME DO YOU HAVE LEFT!AND HOW PREPARED ARE YOU!
i seriously don't wish to see you coming out from the hall after your prelims,
emo-ing there as you know that you are not going to do well!
3 and the half years of commitments ish ENOUGH!
and we should know that we have to let go!
and o levels ish like just 59 days away...
do you think that we have any more time to waste...

i'm saying such harsh words are we are good friends..
and i want you to go into the school you want,
get good results, but not spending on your time on such things...
contributing ish good, but too much helping to your juniors won't help..
cos they will just think that you will always be there for them,
and they will never learn..wad will happen if you are no longer in school!
does that mean that for every single event you are going to go back to school and help them?
i doubt you will have the time to do that!
i'm saying this as IM WORRIED FOR YOU!
and it's not that I DON'T UNDERSTAND!
all i can say ish that i'm really disappointed in a way or another la!
if you think that i don't understand..den let it be...
from now onwards, i won't say anythin anymore..
whatever you think ish right, just do it...
since you say that i don't understand..this just means that after 4 years of friendship,
ish nothing at all to you..say that you understand me well,
its all lies...
forget it la...
i'm sad, im disappointed...i dunwan to talk about this anymore...

[[EILEEN]]

GOOD DEEDS :D

i'm fortunate enough to say that i did good deeds today...

it was a rather rare chance for me to meet someone who ish visually disabled...

today..i was taking mrt from kovan and saw a around 30 years old lady holding to a walking stick...i was wondering how ish she able to get down the stairs and thought if she needed some help to the elevator...

but as i walk just beside her, i saw how she went down the stairs step my step..

i was shocked by that and as she was going towards the direction i'm headin to,

i was standing beside her all the while to make sure that i she won't hit anyone...

after that, we both board the train and she alighted at serangoon too!

as i walked behind her, suddenly after she alighted,she touched to escalator metal part and was like saying" excuse me, can anyone bring my to the circle line?"

when there was like actually no one there...

so i walked up to her and told her that i would bring her there..

i can't imagine wad would happen if no one were to be there..

there isn't any signs or wad so ever for the visually disabled ppl to go to their destination!

as she hold on to my arm and i led her to the circle line...

i was in deep thoughts... wondering what has happened to her...

and how long has she been like this...and also how much she would have been through...

she was very resilience towards everything i guess?

if not, i doubt she would be taking a public transport by herself when she have never been to that place before...

she must have been through so much, in order to achieve such a courage in her...

after she left,

i suddenly felt so fortunate that i'm able to see all the different things in the world...

i would be able to see how ppl smile, what are ppl's expression, how beautiful the world ish...

after meeting this lady, i felt that i've learnt alot...

mentally and im happy today..that i've help someone in need..

maybe it's a small little effort that i can give, but i think i must have meant alot for her :D

tat's all for today :D

byebye!

[[EILEEN]]

HELLO WORLD :D

it's a total waste of my time today...

cos actually wanted to go and change phone today..

but lastly got some problem la..

so need wait till the problem ish settled den can change lorh

will change within this week!

anyway..

next week gonna be busy busy again alr!

muahahazz!

night class night class night class.

only thursday free..as per normal la!
but it will be more and more tiring la!

cos i doubt i will be going home to rest den go back school for night class alr..

might just like stay in school to study den go for night class..

shall see how things goes first la :D

YOG ish going to end soon!

lalalas!

it's sunday once again!

i dunwan to go back to school!

rahhh!

byebye!

[[EILEEN]]

HELLO PEOPLE :D i'm back posting once again..
as i've been rather busy la :D
wednesday i was having night class..
yesterday went to hunt for my new phone, and i would be getting it next week!
as it's out of stock..
today..studied in school den went home to help my mother celebrate her belated bthdae...
sister bought the cakes..and i just finish eating la! hehezz...
quite nice..from secret recipe...
muahahaaazz!

tml ish saturday and sunday!
i'm happy :D muahahaazz!
alright..tat's all for today la..
tml den i shall upload again i think?hehezz!
byebye!
[[EILEEN]]

MUAHAHAHAAZZ! shall say in advance to wish my mum happy birthday la :D
cos her birthday ish tml, but i will be having night class till late..
so dun think i would be able to come online to post it la =X
and soooo..
today was fun la!
extracted the DNA from the banana..
damn cool!hahass!
had fun la :D
hehezz..
tml gonna be another long day..
while the rest of the school can stay at home and sleep
we sec4's and 5's have to go to school and study!
waaaa! how bad can that be man!!!
rahh!

anyway..i'm awaiting for my brother to come home..
so that i will get my ME TO YOU BEAR :D
muahahhaaazz!
tat's all la :D
byebye!
[[EILEEN]]